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	FERN	Ooo slang part the second
	FERN	i think we just shared electrons, because i'm feeling a covalent bond between us
	LANCE	Pidge, I need your help. I gotta send a meme to Chloe but ...
	DIPPER	Hey Varian. You know those crazy alchemy bombs you used...
	PETER	Hey Varian, this is Peter. Um, Peter Graham.
	USAGI	Soooooooo~ How'd the date go?
	MAKO	Varian— Checking in.
	SHIRO	i think one of us put a chicken patty in my toaster
	EDDIE	Hey. We need to talk.
	MELIUS	𝐻𝒾. 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌 𝒾𝓉 𝓁𝑜𝑜𝓀𝓈 𝓌𝑒𝒾𝓇𝒹 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒾𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝓈𝒽𝑜𝓇𝓉
	EDA	Hey, kid. I... owe you an apology.
	LUZ	Valentines
	MAUL	I have a proposition for a project I think you'll be interested in
	USAGI	I LOVE YOU
	FERN	DUDE you still have your bandana!
	BUZZ	Morning. I heard from Fern you wanted to go out into the blizzard.
	FERN	dude your profile changed
	USAGI	Ruby told me about the breakup.
	GLITCH	Varian, I'm gonna go live somewhere else for now
	MAKO	A "nerd" is somebody smart...
	MAUL	Gifts
	FERN	heeyyyy quick question
	FERN	Christmas is coming up!!!
	CHLOE	god who the FUCK ever thought emojis were a good idea???
	KRISTOFF	Varian,It's getting colder so I thought you could use this
	FERN	heyyyy Variable
	RAPUNZEL	okay not to put you on the spot but...
	EDA	Potion time
	NEO	Dude, I can mine antidote shit here!
	GLITCH	Got this in my basket.
	EDA	hey smart kid
	TEN	Hallo
	ADAM	Hey, k-- uh, Varian. I just wanted to check in
	USAGI	I'm sorry I worried you and fainted on you yesterday.
	AMARA	i lived, bitch
	NEO	Debatably good news, asshole
	USAGI	Hey Varian! It's Usagi
	OSCAR	I'm sorry, Varian. Tell me what you need
	FERN	a dark past huh
	MAUL	Varian. I am in great need of your assistance
	FERN	Varian VARIAN I CAN EAT FOOD
	USAGI	How much moon essence do you have?
	USAGI	VIVI-KUN, VIVI-KUN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT!
	RICHIE	well I promised
	FERN	A TOTALLY INCOMPLETE LIST OF OOO WORDS 'N SLANG
	GLITCH	VARIAN ARE THERE BUGS IN THE WATER?!
	USAGI	To help with restless nights and the...
	VIRA-LORR	Little alchemist. I have a gift for you.
	MARTIN	Hi, Varian. This is Martin. I wanted to reach out...
	USAGI	Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you.
	GLITCH	varian I need to talk to you. it's important.
	USAGI	I need you not to panic after what I tell you.
	FERN	dog you have so many vests
	IRONHIDE	HONK HONK
	USAGI	... I'm sorry I couldn't help you better, Varian
	EMERALD	Hey, V. Not that I care that much or anything...
	FERN	tell me when you're alive
	FERN	Varian i stabbed two people
	AMARA	hey weirdo i have something for you
	FERN	is the Rapunzel in town your Rapunzel?
	PENNY	Salutations!! You do not know me, but my name is Penny Polendina
	YANG	Hey, is this Varian? I think we've met once before.
	FERN	hey can we talk
	FERN	you told ruby
	MAUL	Surviving another year is always an occasion worth celebrating
	USAGI	Hey I wanted to apologise
	USAGI	VARIAN-KUUUUNNN!!!!
	FERN	birth
	MAUL	Look what just arrived for me.
	KATHERINE	Do you want to get paid to make more purple goo things?
	FERN	ok i know you're good with plants but what about animals
	FERN	dog interested in means girls or guys

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	USAGI	So. Maul dropped by, he's got his memories back.
	ADAM	I'm worried about Shiro
	FERN	Hey handsome
	OSCAR	You've been weirdly quiet lately
	FERN	Guess what I haven't told you lately?
	USAGI	Hey. I'm back from the dead and I feel like trash.
	FERN	I made meatloaf that may or may not poison us!
	Emerald	Hey. I know you probably don't want to talk to anyone right now...
	BELLA	Hey Bella. You've dated someone who's a different species to you right?
	BILL	Hi, Fern mentioned you were interested in interdimensional portals...
	FERN	Aw, your pictures are nice!
	KURT	Hey. Are you around?
	RICHIE	Is it just me or is Eddie acting weirder than usual?
	QROW	Hey. Checking up on you.
	EDA	Hi Eda. Hope Ruddiger found you okay.
	GLITCH	Hey. What happened between you and Maul?
	LUNA	Luna- I uh... I think I need your help
	EDDIE	So hey, I finally worked out how to replicate the Antidote
	OSCAR	So, I noticed Ozpin has shown up.
	ROGUE	Hey, I managed to replicate the Antidote
	KURT	Hey. We're back. None of us are dead.
	QROW	Uh... hey. How are you guys holding up?
	PETER	You gave Ruby the haunted dolls
	GLITCH	Hey, Bud. Sorry I tried to murder you with a robot
	KURT	I'm probably the last person you want to talk to...
	JON	I'm sorry I attacked you
	JON	Stay away from Fern.
	FERN	Hey you still haven't got me those baking ingredients
	FERN	Okay so the Betties are upping their war...
	USAGI	Hey. So. Update.
	NEO	You tried to bury her alive? SERIOUSLY?
	USAGI	Emotions are really difficult
	FERN	OH MY GOD YOU HAVE ONE TOO
	FERN	Okay this better be to Fern this time.
	WYNONNA	So guess who got into the fridge and ate literally everything in there.

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I know. I don't want anyone else to tell him. I know I have to do it at some point.

I just...

I already completely screwed up with this before... I didn't get to her in time. I was too slow. Jaune begged us to help her and I couldn't. I gave it my all and I all I could do was watch.

I had to watch her die.

Then I spend all this time talking about what I'd do if I had one more chance to see her. If I had one more day to see her again and I all did was mess up over and over again until she was gone again. I couldn't get my act together long enough to make right or really appreciate the second chance we had.

...I don't know how to tell him just how much we screwed up and how sorry I am.

[Yeah. She hates this a whole lot.]

Maybe there's something different that triggers it? Maybe it was a one time thing? Maybe saving him that once was enough? I'm not sure. Not everything in your world matches up with what happened in mine. So it's possible it might not happen like it did in mine. Rapunzel doesn't give off the same vibes that Salem does. But I guess Salem wasn't always the way that she was either.

I don't know.

[Oh. If this doesn't sound horribly familiar. He stares at the Fluid for a little while. He's pretty sure Jaune won't take his grief out on Ruby, he probably would have done it by now, but still- he knows what it's like. To ask for help and not get it. To lose someone as a result of that. But this... isn't like his case. Ruby was there. She tried.]

The fact you were there and trying probably means more than you realise. I'm sorry you had to see her die. That couldn't be easy. I can't even imagine how hard it would be.

But he'd probably appreciate your honesty rather than avoiding it. Not talking about it will just let it fester- the longer it takes, the worse it'll feel when you tell him. I know it's hard, and I don't know how he'll react. But it's that step you'll need to take.

For what it matters, I don't think you screwed up. Having someone you SAW die be here and alive has to be impossible to get your head around. None of us knows how long we've got here, you didn't know she'd go so quickly. You can't blame yourself for something this town did.

[He's so very, very worried about her.]

Maybe it's just a SUPER WEIRD coincidence? I mean, Rapunzel can be SCARY when she wants to be and the Decay Incantation is a whole lot of badness and maybe if she never snapped OUT of that it would be... very world-ending. But no. No pretty sure she wouldn't.

[But what WOULDN'T she do for Eugene? That's... that's one heck of a line there.]

It's just one of those things you don't forget. If I had of been just a little bit faster. Got there just a bit sooner I might have been able to make a difference.

I know he would. I just... We started travelling together shortly after what happened. I'm don't think he'll be angry or upset with us. I just know how much he hurts after what happened. I'm just not ready to reopen the wound and pour salt all over it yet. I know I should. No, I know I have to tell him. I just have to get up and actually do it.

I guess.

Thanks.

I just wish I could have told her how much we missed her. I wish we could have made those days she was here special because she deserved that. She deserved better than what she got in the end in my world and she deserved better than what we gave her here.

I know I did the best I could have done with what was going on. I just wish I could have went above and beyond that to give her something better.

[She's just going to take a minute to herself before she moves on.]

It could be as simple as a difference in character. Salem just let herself fall deeper into darkness as time went on. If Rapunzel was able to snap herself out of something like whatever the Decay Incantation is that could be the difference there. I guess it's something we wont know for sure.

Or maybe you would have done all of those things and been killed instead. Or maybe you could have saved her and someone else got killed instead. Or maybe none of that would have happened at all.

Ruby, take it from someone who knows, if you let those what if's haunt you, you're never going to be able to deal with what happened properly. You'll just let the blame rest on your shoulders and that gets heavy after a while. But I know that's easier said than done. You know I'm here to talk to- you know, if you ever want to take the load off for a while.

[He's well used to carrying heavy baggage for now. He can share hers for a little while, if she needs it.]

I know. I'm sorry you didn't get the chance. That this place took her away before you could. I wouldn't be surprised if it was done on purpose. This place DOES love to make us feel awful.

Yeah. Maybe. Sure isn't a comforting thought, with everything going on back home. But I have to have faith Rapunzel can pull herself away from whatever darkness Salem fell into.

Maybe.

I don't know.

I just don't know.

You're right though. This place might have done it on purpose.

Talking might be... It might be nice?

I'm just not very good at this.

That's understandable. There being a whole lot of not knowing.

Well, if there's one thing I'm used to at this point it's soul-crushing guilt. I'm an ace at that, so I've got you on this one, okay? Whatever you need. Even if it's at like four in the morning because we BOTH know I won't be asleep.

I thought I had things a little more under control... I guess not.

It looks like we have a bit of that in common. I'm counting on you to help me with out that.

Someone really has to give you a bed time.

Thank you, Varian.

I really mean it.

It means the world to me.

I don't think we ver has as much control as we like to think. And sure, you got it.

I will never go to bed at a normal time. That's a pointless battle.

Just glad to be able to give back a little bit of what you give to me.

Probably not.

I might have to take that one up. Just because it's pointless doesn't mean it's not worth fighting.

You do. More than you know. You're the best. <3

You're braver people than most, but I accept the challenge.

Good to know. Oh hey, it's a little heart! <3

[Look, he's still learning emojis, thanks for giving him another.]

Oh yeah? I may have heard someone say that about me before. I'll try not to storm your fortress again to get the job done.

Speaking of challenges. Oscar mentioned something about troubles with dodge ball?

<3 It is~! <3

Use this new power wisely!

Yeah please don't make any more holes in my walls, Usagi will start to worry.

[Oscar you little shit, you squealed!!!]

Gym in general but especially dodge ball. I just don't understand the point of a "lesson" where you just get pelted in the head with balls. I don't know what we're supposed to learn from that. I mean, okay sure, the clue is in the name, dodge the ball- but I don't see how that's supposed to further my academia at all.

I make no promises!

Gosh. Well we wouldn't want that. Your walls are spared for today!

[Under the bus he goes.]

Ouch. Okay. That does sound a little rough. I think it's to encourage you to get up and do a little bit of physical activity during the day? A healthy mind and body are both pretty important? I mean there's a lot less physical activity here compared to what I did in school, but I think it's what they're going for.

Well I can't see you using a heart for evil. So I'm going to have to trust that you can't get into too much trouble with this knowlege.

My walls thank you for your mercy.

[It's probably a good job this is over text and she can't see the face he's pulling, nor the low-grade "ugggggggggggggggh" noise he's making.]

I don't know I'm pretty good just holing up in my lab and working on science. Science is plenty of fun. Who needs to be able to dodge a ball when you can work on a complex chemical equation is all I'm saying.

[When you live in a horror town that keeps trying to kill you, Varian.]

A rookie mistake, if ever there was one. Bwahahaha!

From my experience both can be pretty handy. Not that I'm great at complex chemical equations. I'm normally pretty good at dodging things but the one time I couldn't they came stepped in to the do the job.

I'm just saying a little bit of exercise of training would probably help out. Maybe we could do a bit before or after school?

You FIEND!

I mean. I GUESS it might be smart in this place. Given all the horror-monsters and stuff that keep showing up. It doesn't make any sense in conjecture with the ball dodging, but I see your point.

[Ugh. Exercise. But also spending more time with Ruby. God. What a choice. ]

I feel like I'm probably going to regret this about a week in, but sure. Okay. We can do that before school?

Once you get the hang of it it might make a bit more sense. Just think of every ball as a scary monster claw coming to rip you to pieces.

[The sacrifices he makes.]

Awesome~! let's go get you a fresh pair of running shoes and a sweat band!

Before school sounds like a plan! We'll keep it simple at first and then build you up to something a bit more intense.

Don't want to scare you off right away.

That logic does track somewhat, have to admit it.

Yeah, I am absolutely going to regret this. I'm already scared. The fear is already here. Please don't kill me, I like being alive. No intense, please.

I mean that's how we started learning back where I'm from.

No, no, no. I promise! You'll be fine! No intense until you're ready for it. Promise~!

You have nothing to be afraid of! I wouldn't hurt you!

Having ACTUAL monsters in your average day-to-day would help with that.

Please be gentle. I'm small and scrawny and liable to break.

I guess it might be fun??

It really does!

I've made note of all these things. I'll do what I can.

I promise me to make super fun! Or at least fun as possible for you!

Well, if anyone has even the slightest chance of making exercise even marginally fun for me, it's you.

Well I'll do my best! If it helps you stick with it you can find something you like and I'll give it a shot too.

We already do most of the stuff I like anyway. What with the building things and all :)

[And just hanging out in general. Spending time with Ruby is always time well spent as far as he's concerned. ]

I know, I know! I'm just saying if something pops up that you're not sure about. I'm willing to at least give it a shot too!

[Wow. Varian likes spending time with his girlfriend. What a nerd.]

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