droptheious: (Say I shouldn't kill you yet)
Varian ([personal profile] droptheious) wrote2020-03-11 08:22 am

Deerington inbox



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SUBJECT:
FERN Ooo slang part the second
FERN i think we just shared electrons, because i'm feeling a covalent bond between us
LANCE Pidge, I need your help. I gotta send a meme to Chloe but ...
DIPPER Hey Varian. You know those crazy alchemy bombs you used...
PETER Hey Varian, this is Peter. Um, Peter Graham.
USAGI Soooooooo~ How'd the date go?
MAKO Varianβ€” Checking in.
SHIRO i think one of us put a chicken patty in my toaster
EDDIE Hey. We need to talk.
MELIUS 𝐻𝒾. 𝐼 π“€π“ƒπ‘œπ“Œ 𝒾𝓉 π“π‘œπ‘œπ“€π“ˆ π“Œπ‘’π’Ύπ“‡π’Ή 𝒢𝓃𝒹 𝒾𝓉 π’Ύπ“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π“ˆπ’½π‘œπ“‡π“‰
EDA Hey, kid. I... owe you an apology.
LUZ Valentines
MAUL I have a proposition for a project I think you'll be interested in
USAGI I LOVE YOU
FERN DUDE you still have your bandana!
BUZZ Morning. I heard from Fern you wanted to go out into the blizzard.
FERN dude your profile changed
USAGI Ruby told me about the breakup.
GLITCH Varian, I'm gonna go live somewhere else for now
MAKO A "nerd" is somebody smart...
MAUL Gifts
FERN heeyyyy quick question
FERN Christmas is coming up!!!
CHLOE god who the FUCK ever thought emojis were a good idea???
KRISTOFF Varian,It's getting colder so I thought you could use this
FERN heyyyy Variable
RAPUNZEL okay not to put you on the spot but...
EDA Potion time
NEO Dude, I can mine antidote shit here!
GLITCH Got this in my basket.
EDA hey smart kid
TEN Hallo
ADAM Hey, k-- uh, Varian. I just wanted to check in
USAGI I'm sorry I worried you and fainted on you yesterday.
AMARA i lived, bitch
NEO Debatably good news, asshole
USAGI Hey Varian! It's Usagi
OSCAR I'm sorry, Varian. Tell me what you need
FERN a dark past huh
MAUL Varian. I am in great need of your assistance
FERN Varian VARIAN I CAN EAT FOOD
USAGI How much moon essence do you have?
USAGI VIVI-KUN, VIVI-KUN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT!
RICHIE well I promised
FERN A TOTALLY INCOMPLETE LIST OF OOO WORDS 'N SLANG
GLITCH VARIAN ARE THERE BUGS IN THE WATER?!
USAGI To help with restless nights and the...
VIRA-LORR Little alchemist. I have a gift for you.
MARTIN Hi, Varian. This is Martin. I wanted to reach out...
USAGI Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you.
GLITCH varian I need to talk to you. it's important.
USAGI I need you not to panic after what I tell you.
FERN dog you have so many vests
IRONHIDE HONK HONK
USAGI ... I'm sorry I couldn't help you better, Varian
EMERALD Hey, V. Not that I care that much or anything...
FERN tell me when you're alive
FERN Varian i stabbed two people
AMARA hey weirdo i have something for you
FERN is the Rapunzel in town your Rapunzel?
PENNY Salutations!! You do not know me, but my name is Penny Polendina
YANG Hey, is this Varian? I think we've met once before.
FERN hey can we talk
FERN you told ruby
MAUL Surviving another year is always an occasion worth celebrating
USAGI Hey I wanted to apologise
USAGI VARIAN-KUUUUNNN!!!!
FERN birth
MAUL Look what just arrived for me.
KATHERINE Do you want to get paid to make more purple goo things?
FERN ok i know you're good with plants but what about animals
FERN dog interested in means girls or guys


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TO:
SUBJECT:
USAGI So. Maul dropped by, he's got his memories back.
ADAM I'm worried about Shiro
FERN Hey handsome
OSCAR You've been weirdly quiet lately
FERN Guess what I haven't told you lately?
USAGI Hey. I'm back from the dead and I feel like trash.
FERN I made meatloaf that may or may not poison us!
Emerald Hey. I know you probably don't want to talk to anyone right now...
BELLA Hey Bella. You've dated someone who's a different species to you right?
BILL Hi, Fern mentioned you were interested in interdimensional portals...
FERN Aw, your pictures are nice!
KURT Hey. Are you around?
RICHIE Is it just me or is Eddie acting weirder than usual?
QROW Hey. Checking up on you.
EDA Hi Eda. Hope Ruddiger found you okay.
GLITCH Hey. What happened between you and Maul?
LUNA Luna- I uh... I think I need your help
EDDIE So hey, I finally worked out how to replicate the Antidote
OSCAR So, I noticed Ozpin has shown up.
ROGUE Hey, I managed to replicate the Antidote
KURT Hey. We're back. None of us are dead.
QROW Uh... hey. How are you guys holding up?
PETER You gave Ruby the haunted dolls
GLITCH Hey, Bud. Sorry I tried to murder you with a robot
KURT I'm probably the last person you want to talk to...
JON I'm sorry I attacked you
JON Stay away from Fern.
FERN Hey you still haven't got me those baking ingredients
FERN Okay so the Betties are upping their war...
USAGI Hey. So. Update.
NEO You tried to bury her alive? SERIOUSLY?
USAGI Emotions are really difficult
FERN OH MY GOD YOU HAVE ONE TOO
FERN Okay this better be to Fern this time.
WYNONNA So guess who got into the fridge and ate literally everything in there.


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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-08-30 06:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you.

And how you answer will cause a certain response from me, fair warning.
lightthedarkness: (Usagi) (Hmmmm?)

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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-08-30 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm just gonna... not beat around the bush and this won't be a very delicate question. But...[Well... he's him and this is about emotions. Delicate and subtle need to be thrown out the window.]

Did you and Ruby break up so you could date Fern?
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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-08-30 07:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Varian. [Flatest of gazes.] I'm blonde, not blind.
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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-08-30 08:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I mean... yeah. Both of you have it pretty bad, Varian. And look, in trying not to hurt anyone, you're very obviously hurting yourself... and I don't know... something like this, it tends to end up blowing up and hurting everybody.

I'm gonna go ahead and assume neither Fern nor Ruby knows about this, about your growing feelings? [Whiiich meant... Fern's feelings were kind of being dragged along and this was, unintentionally, betraying Ruby. Oof.]

Look, Varian, sweetie, this is one of those things you HAVE to be open and honest about.
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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-08-30 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
And you're underestimating how much I love you and how much Fern and Ruby love you too.

[Usagi used "Guilt!"]

You handle this by TALKING, Varian.

This isn't something you ignore because maybe, Ruby will notice and maybe just wonder if you're getting bored with the relationship or wonder if you're cheating. And maybe Fern is going to keep thinking his love is unrequited and there's no hope for him until you give him this... glimmer so he can neither move on nor be with you. Or maybe none of that will happen. But this kind of thing needs you to be open and honest.

You CAN love more than one person at a time, Varian. You can even BE with more than one person at a time. [Should she bring up the threesome thing again? Eh, she'll hold on that for now.] But only if EVERYONE agrees to it. You're not being fair to anyone, including yourself,m by trying to pretend you don't feel what you do.

I mean, you do have options. But I think there's only you're going to like.

You can acknowledge that you have feelings for Fern but tell yourself you will NEVER do anything about it and tell FERN the same thing so he has a chance to move on. You tell Ruby you would like to break up and move on with a relationship with Fern, letting him know you still have feelings for HER.

Or you TALK to them and be HONEST about how you feel and see what THEY decide in all this.
lightthedarkness: (Usagi) (Now now none of that)

[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-08-30 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
So then tell Fern the truth, that even if you do find yourself caring for him, you could never be with someone who would harm another person you love like that. It's on Fern to change how he views Ruby, not on you to change his views for him.

And honestly, I don't know how Ruby will take to any of this. It's hard to hear "I love you, but also I love someone else, and want to be with them ALSO." Never mind on top of that "This person I want to also be with wants to stab you." Not everyone is okay with a relationship like that.

But there's no way of knowing until you talk. All three of you. I've already asked Amara for some help when she's feeling better.
lightthedarkness: (Usagi) (Now now none of that)

[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-08-30 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
We can't really help who we fall in love with or when we fall in love with someone. Ruby is a good girl, and Fern likes to say he isn't but he's good too.

Yep. It is definitely gonna suck. Buu~uut imagine how much more it will suck if you DON'T talk to them and bad assumptions get made instead. No matter how good someone is, they can still feel insecure or frightened of uncertainty in a relationship. [She should know!]

Well, not THIS specifically but yes, I talked about the three of you all talking together. She's my meddling partner in crime.
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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-08-31 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, we can. It's very easy, Varian. You just can't be around the people who make your heart skip a beat. We could not talk to the people who make you smile or blush or stutter. You definitely can't be around them, enjoying their company and just spending time around them as they brighten your day by being with you.

See, easy.

I know they mean a lot to you. And it's because you love them that this is hard.

Ruru-chan is a good girl like that.
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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-09-02 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
Oh... so... you want to stop loving Ruby and Fern then? Or make them stop loving you? Is that it? Because that's what you're implying. Or I guess if Rapunzel showed up again we could stop making her love, what was his name, Eugene? I mean, then you can really see if it works. Or hey, since you know what I am, maybe you should just use it on me. Then you'd REALLY know it works.

[Hey guess what Varian, anti-love potion isn't FUNNY so she's going to just go straight for the gut with your little implication.]

Look, I get it, I know how much it hurts our loved ones, to put them in positions they DON'T want to be in. But your feelings aren't done. They're as perfectly valid as everything else you feel.

I know, that's why I asked her in the first place.
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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-09-04 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
Believe me when I say it might be easier but you wouldn't be happier for it, Varian. [She wants to reach out and hug him.] Hearts may not break but only because they cannot love.

Selfishness is as valid as anything else. Though I don't think loving two people is selfish, you feel it, you've not actually done anything about it.

Alright, let's start slow.

What do you love about Ruby?
lightthedarkness: (Usagi) (The things I deal with)

[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-09-05 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
Did you ever ask them if you're actually hurting them, or are you assuming you are, Varian?

Considering your literal FIRST thought about all this was 'I'm gonna make a potion that gets rid of the feelings of love!' And then, might I add, said this to MY face, knowing who and what I am?

Yeah, I would say you doing something before talking to me WOULD have been selfish. But we're going to throw away your very BAD idea of an anti-love potion and work on something that is actually sane and reasonable, and yes, also not selfish.

[She lets Varian gush and then smiles, nodding.]

Good.

Now. What is it about Fern that you love?
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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-09-06 03:12 am (UTC)(link)
Mnn... [She won't talk about all the pain and hurt she has caused and has had done to her, that isn't the point to this and has no place at the moment. She merely listens.]

Good.

[She listens and nods as he talks and then inclines her head.]

Alright, so you know what I didn't hear in all those awesome traits? That they think you're perfect and have the answer for everything or know exactly how to be in a relationship with them.

Varian, you really have to stop thinking you need to have all the answers and that you NEED to be perfect to be in a relationship. They love you for you and what they know you can be and the hope they have in being with you. Nowhere in there do they love you because they expect you to have all the answers for them.
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[personal profile] lightthedarkness 2020-09-07 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, Varian. You are doing better. And if you want proof? Yes, you went back to an old way of being in July, but it was an OLD way. Look at where you're at NOW. Look at how much knowing what you did is hurting you. Not Ruby, not Fern, not me or Rapunzel, you. You are upset by what you did. You have come so far. You just... can't see it because you have to live with your thoughts and fears every day while everyone else just gets to see how incredible you are.

You are enough.

You have always been enough.

You will always be enough.

And when there are days you can't see that beautiful light within yourself, I hope you know that all your loved ones will help shine a light in the darkness so you can find your way.

Because we love you, Varian.

We love you so much.

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