droptheious: (Say I shouldn't kill you yet)
Varian ([personal profile] droptheious) wrote2020-03-11 08:22 am

Deerington inbox



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SUBJECT:
FERN Ooo slang part the second
FERN i think we just shared electrons, because i'm feeling a covalent bond between us
LANCE Pidge, I need your help. I gotta send a meme to Chloe but ...
DIPPER Hey Varian. You know those crazy alchemy bombs you used...
PETER Hey Varian, this is Peter. Um, Peter Graham.
USAGI Soooooooo~ How'd the date go?
MAKO Varianβ€” Checking in.
SHIRO i think one of us put a chicken patty in my toaster
EDDIE Hey. We need to talk.
MELIUS 𝐻𝒾. 𝐼 π“€π“ƒπ‘œπ“Œ 𝒾𝓉 π“π‘œπ‘œπ“€π“ˆ π“Œπ‘’π’Ύπ“‡π’Ή 𝒢𝓃𝒹 𝒾𝓉 π’Ύπ“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π“ˆπ’½π‘œπ“‡π“‰
EDA Hey, kid. I... owe you an apology.
LUZ Valentines
MAUL I have a proposition for a project I think you'll be interested in
USAGI I LOVE YOU
FERN DUDE you still have your bandana!
BUZZ Morning. I heard from Fern you wanted to go out into the blizzard.
FERN dude your profile changed
USAGI Ruby told me about the breakup.
GLITCH Varian, I'm gonna go live somewhere else for now
MAKO A "nerd" is somebody smart...
MAUL Gifts
FERN heeyyyy quick question
FERN Christmas is coming up!!!
CHLOE god who the FUCK ever thought emojis were a good idea???
KRISTOFF Varian,It's getting colder so I thought you could use this
FERN heyyyy Variable
RAPUNZEL okay not to put you on the spot but...
EDA Potion time
NEO Dude, I can mine antidote shit here!
GLITCH Got this in my basket.
EDA hey smart kid
TEN Hallo
ADAM Hey, k-- uh, Varian. I just wanted to check in
USAGI I'm sorry I worried you and fainted on you yesterday.
AMARA i lived, bitch
NEO Debatably good news, asshole
USAGI Hey Varian! It's Usagi
OSCAR I'm sorry, Varian. Tell me what you need
FERN a dark past huh
MAUL Varian. I am in great need of your assistance
FERN Varian VARIAN I CAN EAT FOOD
USAGI How much moon essence do you have?
USAGI VIVI-KUN, VIVI-KUN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT!
RICHIE well I promised
FERN A TOTALLY INCOMPLETE LIST OF OOO WORDS 'N SLANG
GLITCH VARIAN ARE THERE BUGS IN THE WATER?!
USAGI To help with restless nights and the...
VIRA-LORR Little alchemist. I have a gift for you.
MARTIN Hi, Varian. This is Martin. I wanted to reach out...
USAGI Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you.
GLITCH varian I need to talk to you. it's important.
USAGI I need you not to panic after what I tell you.
FERN dog you have so many vests
IRONHIDE HONK HONK
USAGI ... I'm sorry I couldn't help you better, Varian
EMERALD Hey, V. Not that I care that much or anything...
FERN tell me when you're alive
FERN Varian i stabbed two people
AMARA hey weirdo i have something for you
FERN is the Rapunzel in town your Rapunzel?
PENNY Salutations!! You do not know me, but my name is Penny Polendina
YANG Hey, is this Varian? I think we've met once before.
FERN hey can we talk
FERN you told ruby
MAUL Surviving another year is always an occasion worth celebrating
USAGI Hey I wanted to apologise
USAGI VARIAN-KUUUUNNN!!!!
FERN birth
MAUL Look what just arrived for me.
KATHERINE Do you want to get paid to make more purple goo things?
FERN ok i know you're good with plants but what about animals
FERN dog interested in means girls or guys


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TO:
SUBJECT:
USAGI So. Maul dropped by, he's got his memories back.
ADAM I'm worried about Shiro
FERN Hey handsome
OSCAR You've been weirdly quiet lately
FERN Guess what I haven't told you lately?
USAGI Hey. I'm back from the dead and I feel like trash.
FERN I made meatloaf that may or may not poison us!
Emerald Hey. I know you probably don't want to talk to anyone right now...
BELLA Hey Bella. You've dated someone who's a different species to you right?
BILL Hi, Fern mentioned you were interested in interdimensional portals...
FERN Aw, your pictures are nice!
KURT Hey. Are you around?
RICHIE Is it just me or is Eddie acting weirder than usual?
QROW Hey. Checking up on you.
EDA Hi Eda. Hope Ruddiger found you okay.
GLITCH Hey. What happened between you and Maul?
LUNA Luna- I uh... I think I need your help
EDDIE So hey, I finally worked out how to replicate the Antidote
OSCAR So, I noticed Ozpin has shown up.
ROGUE Hey, I managed to replicate the Antidote
KURT Hey. We're back. None of us are dead.
QROW Uh... hey. How are you guys holding up?
PETER You gave Ruby the haunted dolls
GLITCH Hey, Bud. Sorry I tried to murder you with a robot
KURT I'm probably the last person you want to talk to...
JON I'm sorry I attacked you
JON Stay away from Fern.
FERN Hey you still haven't got me those baking ingredients
FERN Okay so the Betties are upping their war...
USAGI Hey. So. Update.
NEO You tried to bury her alive? SERIOUSLY?
USAGI Emotions are really difficult
FERN OH MY GOD YOU HAVE ONE TOO
FERN Okay this better be to Fern this time.
WYNONNA So guess who got into the fridge and ate literally everything in there.


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clickclickbloom: (Every plan)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-13 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ruby was unfortunately too used to shouldering the blame, she was getting better for it but it was hard to let old habits die. The fact remained that Glitch had been hurt and all her talk about trying to make things work with Fern felt like just that. Talk.

She stares at the text briefly before she answers. Giving herself a second to take in what he was saying.]


We really suck at this, don't we?

How's Glitch doing?
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clickclickbloom: (And the lesson isn't new)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-14 06:59 pm (UTC)(link)
No, definitely not. Maybe next time things will go better?

I don't know. I want to think so but it feels like everything's just getting worse.

That's what counts. He seemed upset when I talked to him last. Mad that we didn't tell him this was going on.


[Which... Made her feel kind of like Oz and that did not sit well with her at all.]

I don't know what we could have said... I didn't think it was just going to blow up like that.
clickclickbloom: (Legends scatter)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-15 07:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe you were right about the whole Amara idea. Maybe it's something we can't just figure out for ourselves.

[She wasn't really comfortable with getting someone else involved with this. But that ship sailed once Glitch got hurt. Someone had been involved and it had made a mess of everything.]

Maybe... But you weren't wrong to be frustrated with what happened either.

I'm the one with the experience dealing with teams. I should have found a way to make things work.

Or... Maybe I just shouldn't have brought up anything with teams in the first place.

...Did something else happen?
clickclickbloom: (Our faith will be revived)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-16 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe I'll mention the idea to her. It's not really your responsibility to do something like that either.

I talked with Glitch a little about it. I don't really like it but he did have a good point. It might not matter how much we want to make things work if Fern doesn't want them. Forcing it might not do any good.


[That was good point. Between her talk with Clover and Glitch outside of the cave she was starting to realize her approach to this problem hadn't been working.]

You're right though. We can't keep doing what we're doing. And we shouldn't be putting you through it.

[She's used to breaks between there texts. At least ever since he told her about his life back home. She's patient and waits for it.

...And she doesn't really like what she reads but it's more on her Uncle than that. She had been a little wrapped up in what was going on to pay attention to everything her Uncle had been saying. She had only managed to try and do the damage control on him talking to Fern. She felt bad something had slipped through the cracks.

She thinks back on what Clover told her in the cabin and it finally clicks.]


I'll have a talk with him.

I... I don't think he really thinks that way about you or your skills. I think this might have had a bit more to do with what happened to me.

I don't think he took the whole... me dying thing very well. And I think he was scared that it might happen again.

It doesn't excuse what he said. He shouldn't have lashed at you like that.

You're one of the most talented people I know Varian. Whether it's just inventing or out in the field. Please don't forget that.
clickclickbloom: (Still we pray)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-17 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's something in her mind gnawing at her to ask about what she saw when they escaped the cave. She knew there was more going on than she was being told. She didn't know if that knowledge would help her with this situation but it might help clear the air. But she was afraid of what she might find out. She was hurt that he hadn't told her himself. ...And she was slowly becoming terrified of what might happen if she didn't figure this out.]

I'm sorry.

[It's all she can really think of to say there. She couldn't make things better between her and Fern. She didn't know how to make this any less hard between all of them.

Reading the next comment hurt. She had been so preoccupied trying to put out another fire that she hadn't been focusing on how rough Varian had got it.]


I'm sorry... I should have stepped in there. I was trying to put out another fire. You weren't the only target.

[And... She's not 100% comfortable doing this because it was set to private but she'll send screen shots of the conversation she had with Qrow during all of this.]

I was trying. I'm sorry.
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clickclickbloom: (who will wake me from the spell)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-19 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
I wasn't lying when I said I would. I should have been watching out for you and Glitch and while I was at it...

I will talk him to about that. You didn't deserve that.


[She's just... Really tired of watching her best blow up in front of her face.

The waiting doesn't bother her so much. She's used to that with their conversations. The actual replies makes her tense up in dread. She's more than a little scared to find out what's going on.

So a simple response comes back after a long pause.]


Where? When?
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clickclickbloom: (We're born to do what's right)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-19 03:35 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not just your stuff. It's my uncle too. I care for the both of you. I don't want him to hurt you like that and I think I understand what he's going through.

I think it's best if I try to talk to him. We can take a break after that, I promise.


[She hopes. She's not sure how to feel about any of this. She knows she has try and make things right and that's why she's scrambling right now, because everything just feels broken.]

...I think now might be for the best.

Somewhere private? Maybe the park?

Warehouse?


[Wherever they end up agreeing to meet. There will be a long wait as Ruby inevitably ends up dragging her feet, getting off at the wrong bus stop and just over all dreads going to have whatever talk they're about to have.

It may be the second time that she's done this now.]
clickclickbloom: (The dream that you've always dreamed)

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[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-19 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[That "I'm worried." about you stings a little and she's not sure why. With Oz being here she's been more on edge when it comes to secrets or not knowing what's going on. It makes the whole situation they're in right now hurt right down to her core.]

I'll be okay.

[And unfortunately she leaves him waiting long than she should. She steps into the warehouse silently and awkwardly, eventually finding her way to a workbench beside him which she hops up onto to sit down.

Her hands play at the hem of her skirt as she sits nervously for a moment.]


H-hey.
clickclickbloom: (Legends scatter)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-19 05:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[She returns the smile. It's nervous and falters just a little bit she tries to maintain it.

Her eyes glance at the cookies and they light up for just a second, but her stomach is in so many knots that she knows she can't even think about eating them quite yet.

The memory of the last bad news cookies flash through her mind. She swallows. They got through that. They could get through this too. She just had to keep holding on to that thought for now.]


...Maybe in a little. I'm not hungry right now.

[Famous words that showed that something was terribly wrong, but she pushed through.]

Y-you wanted to talk?
clickclickbloom: (There's no knight in shining armor)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-19 05:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[Her fingers leave from her skirt, moving to grasp at her knees instead as she leaned forward. She hated this more than anything. Then tension piling up through her.

She felt her heart sink at his next words and didn't help the pile of thoughts going through her head.

She knew they could beat around the bush at this for hours but she wasn't sure her heart would last through it.]


...That sounds pretty bad, but I'm pretty tough. I can handle bad news.

[She sucks in breath. Then she decides maybe she should move this forward.]

Is this about you and Fern?
clickclickbloom: (Every plan)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-19 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's a moment when he answers the question that she feels all that built up tension pull at her again. She feels awful to have beaten him to the punch on asking for it. It reminds her of when she used the Relic of Knowledge to learn about Ozpin's past. She hates it.

She eyes him briefly and sees how scared he looks. She feels the tension in her gut ease out of her as he starts to speak again. There's a reassurance in his tone that manages to wash over the hurt and the confusion. Those feelings were still there but this didn't feel like the worst case scenario that she had assumed it was. Or at least there was more to it than that.]


O-okay...

[Her voice cracks. She hadn't quite realized how much she had needed to hear that through all of this. She takes a deep breath and tries again.]

I understand. I think.

Just... Just tell me what's going on.

clickclickbloom: (I swear it showed up out of thin air)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-20 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
[Ruby just listens to what he has to say. That tense feeling continues to unwind as she hears what he's been going through. It still hurts because she knows this is complicated business and it's well above what she's really emotionally prepared for. It's... still not as bad as thoughts that had been running through her head and she's grateful for that.]

I... I got that impression. I saw the two of you when we were leaving the cave.

I-

Well I know you well enough to know when you're happy with someone.

[She pauses on that. Her thoughts on Fern were murky at best. He had gone from someone who wanted to kill her to... Well honestly she had no idea where they actually stood. It wasn't anywhere good and it still made her blood to think of that sneer he sent her way when Glitch was in trouble. She had been trying for months to try and find some way to make things better between the two of them and she hadn't gotten anywhere. She didn't really have the words Varian might be hoping to hear from her.]

...I think you should do what makes you happy.

[She lets those words sit for a moment.]

But-

Well-

I think you should be honest with how you feel... Especially when we made an agreement to do just that.

And well... I think you should be honest with Fern too.

[A part of her wants to go over and comfort him. But she just can't quite bring herself to do that. She sympathizes with how he's feeling immensely but she's still hurt that she had to find out about this before he told her.

She rubs at the back of her head nervously.]


I don't have a lot of experience with something like this. This whole relationship thing is kind of new to me. But... Well my dad, Yang's mom, and my mom might have done something like this when they were our age. I don't actually know what happened but it tore their team apart. ...Raven left, she outright abandoned Yang. My mom, well...

[She died.]

And my dad took years to recover from that. I don't want that to be what happens to us. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
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clickclickbloom: (Still we pray)

[personal profile] clickclickbloom 2020-09-20 08:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[Making him feel ashamed for it wasn't what she was after. He was entitled to feel however he felt and she wanted him to know that. She just didn't want to find out like that. Not when they already had an agreement when it came to things like this.]

Varian. ...There's nothing wrong with feeling the way that you do. Whether the feelings come and go.

But hiding thing it like that isn't what we agreed on. Whether it was to protect me or not, that wasn't for you to decide.

I want to be able to help and support you however I can, but I can't do that if you don't tell me how you're feeling or what's bothering you.

And... I've already had my fair share of people hide the truth from me before. I've got my got my own fair share of burdens to bear because of it.

[She... Didn't want to feel like she was dealing with another situation like Ozpin. She really didn't. She didn't believe Varian would ever get to that level. Not when he knew what she had been through already.]

...You didn't want to hurt either of us. You wanted to be happy. You wanted the both of us to happy. I don't blame you for that.

I've been trying my best to help. Maybe I've been trying too hard. I can't force him to like me if he doesn't want to.

[She let's out a breath as that 'oh' hangs in the air briefly.]

Dad and Uncle Qrow don't talk about it a lot, and it was before I was born so I don't really know what happened myself.

...But I got to see the results of whatever did happen.

I don't want that for us either. But... I think if you want something like this to work that it can't just be just you trying to make it work. Or even two of us trying to make it work. It would be the have to be all of us working together to make it work.

And I don't think that's something that's going to happen right now.

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