 "un/finished") |
FERN |
Ooo slang part the second |
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FERN |
i think we just shared electrons, because i'm feeling a covalent bond between us |
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LANCE |
Pidge, I need your help. I gotta send a meme to Chloe but ... |
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DIPPER |
Hey Varian. You know those crazy alchemy bombs you used... |
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PETER |
Hey Varian, this is Peter. Um, Peter Graham. |
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USAGI |
Soooooooo~ How'd the date go? |
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MAKO |
Varianβ Checking in. |
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SHIRO |
i think one of us put a chicken patty in my toaster |
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EDDIE |
Hey. We need to talk. |
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MELIUS |
π»πΎ. πΌ ππππ πΎπ πππππ πππΎππΉ πΆππΉ πΎπ πΎπ πππ ππ½πππ |
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EDA |
Hey, kid. I... owe you an apology. |
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LUZ |
Valentines |
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MAUL |
I have a proposition for a project I think you'll be interested in |
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USAGI |
I LOVE YOU |
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FERN |
DUDE you still have your bandana! |
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BUZZ |
Morning. I heard from Fern you wanted to go out into the blizzard. |
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FERN |
dude your profile changed |
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USAGI |
Ruby told me about the breakup. |
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GLITCH |
Varian, I'm gonna go live somewhere else for now |
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MAKO |
A "nerd" is somebody smart... |
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MAUL |
Gifts |
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FERN |
heeyyyy quick question |
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FERN |
Christmas is coming up!!! |
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CHLOE |
god who the FUCK ever thought emojis were a good idea??? |
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KRISTOFF |
Varian,It's getting colder so I thought you could use this |
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FERN |
heyyyy Variable |
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RAPUNZEL |
okay not to put you on the spot but... |
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EDA |
Potion time |
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NEO |
Dude, I can mine antidote shit here! |
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GLITCH |
Got this in my basket. |
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EDA |
hey smart kid |
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TEN |
Hallo |
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ADAM |
Hey, k-- uh, Varian. I just wanted to check in |
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USAGI |
I'm sorry I worried you and fainted on you yesterday. |
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AMARA |
i lived, bitch |
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NEO |
Debatably good news, asshole |
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USAGI |
Hey Varian! It's Usagi |
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OSCAR |
I'm sorry, Varian. Tell me what you need |
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FERN |
a dark past huh |
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MAUL |
Varian. I am in great need of your assistance |
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FERN |
Varian VARIAN I CAN EAT FOOD |
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USAGI |
How much moon essence do you have? |
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USAGI |
VIVI-KUN, VIVI-KUN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT! |
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RICHIE |
well I promised |
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FERN |
A TOTALLY INCOMPLETE LIST OF OOO WORDS 'N SLANG |
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GLITCH |
VARIAN ARE THERE BUGS IN THE WATER?!
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USAGI |
To help with restless nights and the... |
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VIRA-LORR |
Little alchemist. I have a gift for you. |
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MARTIN |
Hi, Varian. This is Martin. I wanted to reach out... |
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USAGI |
Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you. |
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GLITCH |
varian I need to talk to you. it's important. |
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USAGI |
I need you not to panic after what I tell you. |
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FERN |
dog you have so many vests |
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IRONHIDE |
HONK HONK |
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USAGI |
... I'm sorry I couldn't help you better, Varian |
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EMERALD |
Hey, V. Not that I care that much or anything... |
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FERN |
tell me when you're alive |
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FERN |
Varian i stabbed two people |
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AMARA |
hey weirdo i have something for you
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FERN |
is the Rapunzel in town your Rapunzel? |
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PENNY |
Salutations!! You do not know me, but my name is Penny Polendina |
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YANG |
Hey, is this Varian? I think we've met once before. |
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FERN |
hey can we talk |
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FERN |
you told ruby |
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MAUL |
Surviving another year is always an occasion worth celebrating |
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USAGI |
Hey I wanted to apologise |
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USAGI |
VARIAN-KUUUUNNN!!!! |
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FERN |
birth |
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MAUL |
Look what just arrived for me. |
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KATHERINE |
Do you want to get paid to make more purple goo things? |
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FERN |
ok i know you're good with plants but what about animals |
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FERN |
dog interested in means girls or guys |
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Text | UN: CrescentRose | Sometime after the fire incident.
So I didn't turn my fluid off because I wanted to make sure you too didn't get hurt before I got there.
I may have overheard you and Fern arguing a little there.
I just wanted you to know I think you did the right thing by reaching out for help.
I don't know Fern very well but I understand he has some hang ups.
We shared emotions for a little in Rapture. It was weird.
I think it's good that you're there for him.
Keep it up.
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NOPE. ]
2/3
But what if she decides (rightly) that he was a monster and keeps the hell away from him? That he just loses her forever.
The guilt can't be half as bad as that, right?
The little (...) appears a few times as he starts and deletes a bunch of replies to her. This was so much easier back home- when he didn't have the option of keeping people in the dark. Everyone knew what he did, they either forgave him or they didn't. He couldn't and didn't have any choice in the process. Now he does- and he can't decide what the best course of action is.
God, he wishes Rapunzel or Eugene were here. They'd know what to do. Hell, at this point, he'd even take Lance. Maybe Cass? No... no, probably not Cass. He wants someone to tell him what he should do- what the morally right thing is. But they're not here, and he has to figure this out on his own. He doesn't know if he trusts himself to make the right call. ]
3/3
[The fact he's not quizzing her about the emotion sharing is probably a sign.]
I'm looking out for him because... because I know he needs it. It's not just about being there for him because it's the right thing to do. It's just-
[Does he even want her to know? He always wanted a clean slate back home. A clean slate was what he was aiming for at the start. Now he has one and he feels awful for maintaining it. It feels like lying. He can live with that with the other people he's met in Deerington. For some reason, it doesn't settle right when it comes to her. ]
There's a lot of things you don't know about me.
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It was not the first time she had experienced people hiding the truth from her. Her Uncle following her Mistral without telling her, knowing full well that she had a target on her back. Professor Ozpin and well... just about everything with that bag of worms. She didn't think Varian was doing this to hurt her or anyone here. From what Varian had told her about himself it seemed like he was trying to do what was right thing back home.
Her eyes glanced down to the lamp that hung from her side. Her own words echoed in the back of her mind. "What is Ozpin hiding from us?"
She didn't for an instant believe that something like that would be necessary here. Varian was already being more honest with her then Ozpin had been.]
Yeah. I had a feeling that might be the case.
I could say the same thing too.
You don't have to share with me if you don't want to. I'm not going to force you to say anything. I've seen how you act and I think your heart is in the right place.
How about I tell you some things about me? And you can jump in if you feel like it.
Or you can just ask me whatever you want. I'm game.
[Maybe if she gave a little. It might make him feel better about it.]
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...But it feels wrong to do so. He doesn't want to lie to her. She's been a good friend to him and she deserves the truth. ]
You might not say that after. It's really bad.
[That's an understatement and he knows it. He was a monster and once she knows that, things will never be the same again. But at least they'd be honest. And of course, she'd offer some of her own stories up too. Because that's just how Ruby is. She's so decent and she deserves better than to be spending her time around people like him. ]
Only if you want to. It doesn't have to be an equivalent exchange of awfulness. You don't have to bring up painful memories you'd rather avoid on my account.
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1 being you took the last cookie from the cookie jar. 10 being the fate of the entire world is at stake.
Where do you think it sits?
[It was a broad scale, but these were the kind of odds she tended to deal with back at home. It was hard to explain so she wasn't going to try at the moment.]
Yeah. We'll keep it simple for now.
Silver eyes. Like mine. They are a super rare trait where I come from. I've only known two other people who have had them. My mom and my mentor, Maria.
My uncle first told me about them. There isn't a lot of knowledge about them but there's a handful of stories saying that those with silver eyes are destined to live the life of a warrior. That they can strike down Grimm with a single glance.
There aren't any Grimm around here so I can't really show you. But it's true.
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[A simple answer, an easy number to come to. Would he have settled with razing Corona to the ground if he'd been successful in his attack? Would that have sated him or would he have gone further? Would he have turned his rage on the rest of the world? He honestly doesn't know. He'd like to think he would have stopped, but he was so angry. He just wanted the whole damn world to burn.
He'd noticed her eyes- of course he had. He'd made a mental note that they were unusual but had thought maybe in her world they weren't. Turns out he was wrong on that one.]
So you have like... eye beams? Do they only work on Grimm? It must be a helpful ability to have in a fight. I'm guessing it's not as simple as just glaring at one? Otherwise, you wouldn't need Crescent Rose.
[He knows he's letting himself get distracted. He's... working his way up to his thing.]
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So when you said that you were out there working with your princess to make things better, was that true? Or were you making that up?
[She's fine with talking about herself as a bit of a distraction. She's not out to force any information out of him. If he wants to tell her then he can do it on his terms.]
Kind of. My mentor gave me a good smack on the head when I talked about them like eye beams though. As far as I know they only work on Grimm with like one exception.
It would be a super handy ability to use if I could do it reliably. I didn't have a clue how they worked until I met Maria. So I'm just kind of fumbling to get them to work now. It's more about a state of mind and I haven't got that down yet.
So yeah. I do still need Crescent Rose. I fight people too and my eyes don't work against them so I don't expect to be getting rid of it anytime soon.
But you'd think with such a powerful ability it would be more common in my world. That there'd be a bit more information beyond just old stories.
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It was true. I am trying to make things better. But it also involves me trying to make up for all the bad things I've done. I'm trying to even out the scales, I guess.
[It never really occurred to him she'd have to fight people too- he wonders how dangerous her world is. It sounded bad enough that she was dealing with monsters- to have to deal with people too?]
You'd be surprised. That happens back home, too. The most dangerous magic we have in my world is confined to one scroll and I'm the only person alive who's figured out how to read the code on it. It's one of the reasons I need to get back. To get that information to the right people and away from the wrong person.
I'd say I'd help you with it here, but without any Grimm, I guess we're just going to have to settle for not knowing.
[God, does he hate not knowing. He stares at his screen for a short time, exhales. Okay. He can do this- he'll just have to live with wherever the dice fall.]
Okay. I'm ready to tell you my thing.
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Good to know. That does effect where this sits on the scale as far as I'm concerned.
[She wont say where it's fallen to until she has some more information. She's got opinions based on what he's said.]
I am surprised! Sounds like you have a big job ahead of you.
That kind of plays into what I'm referring to when it comes to silver eyes. There are people out there who have gone out of their way over the years to destroy any information about them. They've also hunted and killed us because of our abilities.
I think that's why I'm the only only who still has them.
[She pauses briefly. Then responds.]
Alright. Lay it on me.
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I have. I just have to... get there. Somehow.
That's terrible. I'm sorry to hear that. That's... well, there's no good reason to kill people, but that's a really bad reason.
[He makes a mental note of that though. She said her mother had them, and if she's the only person left with them...well, two and two make four. He sucks in a breath- he's kind of glad this is over text- it means he doesn't have to worry about a waver in his voice- he doesn't have to worry about giving up him running away. He can just... say it. ]
So. There are these black rocks in my world. They're a whole complicated thing but all you need to know is that they're unbreakable and they are taking over our world. They raise up from the ground in sharp spikes. They were taking over my village- destroying homes, crops, everything.
My dad is the village leader. He went to the King to talk about them and I went with him. But dad had a past I didn't know about- which again, complicated, but he was supposed to protect the knowledge of the rocks away from everyone. So he lied to the King. Said nothing was wrong. I told the Princess this and she promised she'd help me work things out. I just wanted to help my village.
Dad forbade me from touching the rocks, but I didn't listen. I created a compound that made an amber that would encase them. Dad found out and rushed in- he pushed me out of the way of the expanding amber and got stuck in it himself. It was encasing him with the rocks.
[He still has nightmares about it. Seeing his father slowly being swallowed alive by an experiment he made himself.]
I went to the Princess for help. Her hair reacted to the rocks- they were connected somehow. I begged her to help me, but she was dealing with a snowstorm that was engulfing her Kingdom, and her parents were missing. She couldn't come. By the time I got back home to my dad, the amber had encased him completely.
This is all just the setup, by the way. For your siding scale of awfulness.
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She understands a complicated situation better then anyone. So she takes a moment to let it sink in. She can't help but draw parallels to what had happened between Salem and Ozma. The desperation, the secrets. She didn't know what was coming next but she had feeling she knew the tune.]
I understand. The sliding scale reserves it's judgement.
Keep going.
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The Princess got her magical hair powers from a flower. I decided that maybe THAT would be able to break the rocks and free my father. But I didn't trust her to help me on her own any more. I decided she betrayed me- I was stupid, and wrong, but there you go. I drugged the guards with a truth serum and found out where the flower was hidden. Then I conned Rapunzel into taking me through the castle to find it. I used her, and I didn't even care. When he found it, it was rotting, but I took the whole thing anyway- I forced her to commit treason and I ran with it.
The flower didn't even work. The magic in it had gone. It did nothing to free my dad, and that's when I realised the magic wasn't in the flower any more- it was all in Rapunzel. I needed her, but I'd burned THAT bridge. So I created a distraction in the kingdom. I turned Ruddiger into a monster and unleashed him on the town. He tore up the guards pretty badly, and while everyone was dealing with him, I kidnapped the Queen to use as bait to lure Rapunzel to my lab.
[Ruddiger survived, and it didn't hurt him any, but he COULD have died, and Varian didn't even care any more. It was all a means to an end. Everything was, at that point, and everything and everyone was simply cannon fodder for that goal. ]
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She couldn't deny that it sounded pretty awful. Still there was a more human side to what Varian had to say and ending to the story that hadn't appeared in her own.]
And I take it she took the bait?
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She did. She and the King came to save the Queen. What remained of the guards and a handful of Rapunzel's friends tried a direct assault, but I set up a bunch of automatons. They kept them busy. I laid a trap for Rapunzel and the King. I forced Rapunzel to help me. I could have just asked her but I didn't, I gave her a choice. I released my amber solution by the Queen. She either helped me or the amber would take her mother like it took her father. So. Not really a choice at all.
I didn't even know if using her hair on the amber would have killed her- I knew there was a chance and I didn't care. It didn't work. Nothing worked. The King and Queen got free and I just snapped. I got aboard one of my automatons and attacked them. I literally told Rapunzel that if I couldn't have a happy ending, then she couldn't either. I tried to crush the queen and Rapunzel's best friend to death with my machine. I was killing them. But Rapunzel figured out her connection to the rocks and stopped me, destroyed my mechanical army and I went to jail for a year for high treason.
And you know, even THEN after ALL that, she still asked them to go easy on me. After everything. Because that's the kind of person she is.
[Rapunzel has always been an endless well of goodness and forgiveness in a way Varian could never understand. She really was the epitome of the Sundrop. ]
Anyway, Rapunzel went off on an adventure to understand the rocks better while I was in jail. I had time to reflect and realise what I did was wrong. When I was there, I met an extremist in there. He convinced me to help him and his people take over the Kingdom. I wiped the memory of the King and Queen and aimed to do it to everyone else, too. I figured that was the only way I could be forgiven. Rapunzel showed up and the extremists told me they were gonna destroy Corona instead. I didn't want any more people to get hurt. So I helped Rapunzel stop them. I cleaned up the mess I made. I tried to sacrifice myself to keep everyone safe, but she didn't let me.
[And god, he'd been HAPPY for the airship to blow with him aboard. Because that would have solved everything. All the pain he was carting around, the fact that he'd done so much harm. But Rapunzel didn't let him, she'd saved his life. Given him a second chance that he never wanted to waste.]
Corona was saved, Rapunzel used her new powers to save my dad and I was given a ticket to freedom. I've been trying to make up for everything since then. Trying to help her deal with the latest threat to the kingdom. Trying to make the world better than what I did to it.
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The lengths he had gone to save his father. The lengths he had went to try and make people forget what he had done after. It reminded her a lot of the lengths that Salem had went to bring Ozma back and the lengths she had gone to defy the Gods and their punishment.
There was a key difference in those stories though. Varian was trying to make up for what he had done and Salem was still... Salem. If Varian's friends. If the people he had done this too had been able to give him another shot. She felt the like the least she could do is give him the same chance. He hadn't given her any reason to not trust him here. He had saved her life. She had spent time with people who thought they were pariahs and people who actually were. He was good people now as far as she was concerned even if he hadn't always been.
She's probably spent a little too much time thinking this over, but he had typed it and she had to mull it all over now.]
Varian.
I don't really know what to say to all of that. If all of that is true and I don't have any reason not to believe you. Then it sounds like you had a real streak of awful in your life. It sounds like you were hurt and you hurt people right back whether they deserved it or not. That is pretty despicable I won't argue with that.
At the same time you were trying to save your dad. I don't know what I lengths I would go to do the same thing. I know that I put my life on the line to save anyone I can whenever I can. I can understand wanting to do whatever was in your power to help someone.
I can't really judge you based off what you did in the past. It's not my place to do that. I can only trust in what I've seen you do and what you've told me. It sounds like it would have been a lot easier for you not to tell me all this and carry on the way you we've going. You didn't take the easy way out. You were honest and you put everything you had on the table knowing this could blow up in your face. I've met a lot of people who wouldn't be willing to do the same thing if they were pressed to.
Your friends at home were willing to give you a second a chance. They seemed to think that you were worth it. I want to believe in the same Varian that they believed in. I'll put my trust in the Varian who went into a burning building to save his friend.
I can't take away the guilt you feel for what you did there. I can't forgive you for anything you've done back there. All I can do is trust in who you are now. All I can do is be here for you now.
Thank you for telling me all of this, for trusting me with your story. It was very brave of you.
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It would be smarter for her to just cut her losses and run now. Because he'd been a mess and he was still a mess. A part of him was always worried he was only a small misstep away from becoming a monster again- because he was sure a part of him was still broken and awful. Why would he inflict that on someone like her?
But she does respond. And he takes his time to mull over her answer. It's a better response than he expected- by a long way. Not quite the utter forgiveness Rapunzel provided him, and he's glad of that. Rapunzel's attitude is smothering sometimes- she may be trying to make him feel accepted and better, but it only serves to remind him how terrible he is. At least Ruby is more grounded than that and he's glad for it. ]
It's... a lot, I know. And I needed to tell you. You matter a lot to me. You deserved the truth. Then at least you could make more informed choices about spending time with me. It didn't feel fair any more, keeping you in the dark. It wasn't exactly lying, but it was close enough. Hiding the truth from you didn't feel like a real option any more, brave or not.
I don't expect forgiveness, I sure don't deserve it. But thank you. For that. And for hearing me out. If you want to bail out now, you absolutely can. I genuinely wouldn't blame you. No hard feelings.
[He doesn't want her to. He wants to stay the Varian who would go into a burning building to save his friend. He wants to keep being the Varian she can believe in, instead of... that. But it's only fair he gives her the option. She wouldn't do it herself- but with a choice... he doesn't know. Maybe. ]
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Honestly,I appreciate that. I've had some bad experiences when it comes to information being withheld. The fact that you actually came forward with this on your own says a lot about you. I meant that.
You're welcome. I'm around to talk to whenever you need it.
I am going to bail out though, but only because I could really go for a burger right now. Do you want to come?
1/2
[Fenr pointed out there's a damn good chance Deerington will force him back the other way one day- that it had a knack for such things. He's under no allusions that maybe that might be the case one day. That he'll backslide and make a mess of things again.
But maybe he has a fighting chance with friends around. ]
2/2
Yeah. Sure. That sounds like a good idea. I don't think I've eaten since...
I want to say 'yesterday?'
[Save him from himself, Ruby.]
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[She had gotten that spiel herself. That this place was going to change her and there were just things she wouldn't stop here. That she wouldn't be able to keep all the promises she had made. Maybe they were right but she wasn't going to just accept something like that without a fight.
She wanted to keep believing and fighting for the people that needed a hand to stand up when times were tough.]
I have no idea how you do that. I would die. Literally die.
I haven't eaten since breakfast and I'm starving.
I'll be there in a jiffy.
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[His own ability to judge how 'good' he's being is horribly skewed. It helps to have decent people around to let him know he's still on the straight and narrow. ]
Honestly most of it is because I forget to eat rather than from any actual skill. Same with sleeping.
Great, see you soon.