 "un/finished") |
FERN |
Ooo slang part the second |
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FERN |
i think we just shared electrons, because i'm feeling a covalent bond between us |
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LANCE |
Pidge, I need your help. I gotta send a meme to Chloe but ... |
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DIPPER |
Hey Varian. You know those crazy alchemy bombs you used... |
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PETER |
Hey Varian, this is Peter. Um, Peter Graham. |
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USAGI |
Soooooooo~ How'd the date go? |
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MAKO |
Varianβ Checking in. |
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SHIRO |
i think one of us put a chicken patty in my toaster |
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EDDIE |
Hey. We need to talk. |
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MELIUS |
π»πΎ. πΌ ππππ πΎπ πππππ πππΎππΉ πΆππΉ πΎπ πΎπ πππ ππ½πππ |
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EDA |
Hey, kid. I... owe you an apology. |
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LUZ |
Valentines |
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MAUL |
I have a proposition for a project I think you'll be interested in |
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USAGI |
I LOVE YOU |
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FERN |
DUDE you still have your bandana! |
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BUZZ |
Morning. I heard from Fern you wanted to go out into the blizzard. |
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FERN |
dude your profile changed |
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USAGI |
Ruby told me about the breakup. |
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GLITCH |
Varian, I'm gonna go live somewhere else for now |
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MAKO |
A "nerd" is somebody smart... |
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MAUL |
Gifts |
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FERN |
heeyyyy quick question |
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FERN |
Christmas is coming up!!! |
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CHLOE |
god who the FUCK ever thought emojis were a good idea??? |
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KRISTOFF |
Varian,It's getting colder so I thought you could use this |
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FERN |
heyyyy Variable |
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RAPUNZEL |
okay not to put you on the spot but... |
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EDA |
Potion time |
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NEO |
Dude, I can mine antidote shit here! |
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GLITCH |
Got this in my basket. |
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EDA |
hey smart kid |
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TEN |
Hallo |
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ADAM |
Hey, k-- uh, Varian. I just wanted to check in |
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USAGI |
I'm sorry I worried you and fainted on you yesterday. |
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AMARA |
i lived, bitch |
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NEO |
Debatably good news, asshole |
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USAGI |
Hey Varian! It's Usagi |
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OSCAR |
I'm sorry, Varian. Tell me what you need |
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FERN |
a dark past huh |
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MAUL |
Varian. I am in great need of your assistance |
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FERN |
Varian VARIAN I CAN EAT FOOD |
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USAGI |
How much moon essence do you have? |
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USAGI |
VIVI-KUN, VIVI-KUN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT! |
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RICHIE |
well I promised |
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FERN |
A TOTALLY INCOMPLETE LIST OF OOO WORDS 'N SLANG |
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GLITCH |
VARIAN ARE THERE BUGS IN THE WATER?!
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USAGI |
To help with restless nights and the... |
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VIRA-LORR |
Little alchemist. I have a gift for you. |
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MARTIN |
Hi, Varian. This is Martin. I wanted to reach out... |
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USAGI |
Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you. |
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GLITCH |
varian I need to talk to you. it's important. |
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USAGI |
I need you not to panic after what I tell you. |
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FERN |
dog you have so many vests |
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IRONHIDE |
HONK HONK |
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USAGI |
... I'm sorry I couldn't help you better, Varian |
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EMERALD |
Hey, V. Not that I care that much or anything... |
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FERN |
tell me when you're alive |
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FERN |
Varian i stabbed two people |
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AMARA |
hey weirdo i have something for you
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FERN |
is the Rapunzel in town your Rapunzel? |
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PENNY |
Salutations!! You do not know me, but my name is Penny Polendina |
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YANG |
Hey, is this Varian? I think we've met once before. |
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FERN |
hey can we talk |
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FERN |
you told ruby |
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MAUL |
Surviving another year is always an occasion worth celebrating |
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USAGI |
Hey I wanted to apologise |
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USAGI |
VARIAN-KUUUUNNN!!!! |
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FERN |
birth |
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MAUL |
Look what just arrived for me. |
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KATHERINE |
Do you want to get paid to make more purple goo things? |
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FERN |
ok i know you're good with plants but what about animals |
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FERN |
dog interested in means girls or guys |
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The lengths he had gone to save his father. The lengths he had went to try and make people forget what he had done after. It reminded her a lot of the lengths that Salem had went to bring Ozma back and the lengths she had gone to defy the Gods and their punishment.
There was a key difference in those stories though. Varian was trying to make up for what he had done and Salem was still... Salem. If Varian's friends. If the people he had done this too had been able to give him another shot. She felt the like the least she could do is give him the same chance. He hadn't given her any reason to not trust him here. He had saved her life. She had spent time with people who thought they were pariahs and people who actually were. He was good people now as far as she was concerned even if he hadn't always been.
She's probably spent a little too much time thinking this over, but he had typed it and she had to mull it all over now.]
Varian.
I don't really know what to say to all of that. If all of that is true and I don't have any reason not to believe you. Then it sounds like you had a real streak of awful in your life. It sounds like you were hurt and you hurt people right back whether they deserved it or not. That is pretty despicable I won't argue with that.
At the same time you were trying to save your dad. I don't know what I lengths I would go to do the same thing. I know that I put my life on the line to save anyone I can whenever I can. I can understand wanting to do whatever was in your power to help someone.
I can't really judge you based off what you did in the past. It's not my place to do that. I can only trust in what I've seen you do and what you've told me. It sounds like it would have been a lot easier for you not to tell me all this and carry on the way you we've going. You didn't take the easy way out. You were honest and you put everything you had on the table knowing this could blow up in your face. I've met a lot of people who wouldn't be willing to do the same thing if they were pressed to.
Your friends at home were willing to give you a second a chance. They seemed to think that you were worth it. I want to believe in the same Varian that they believed in. I'll put my trust in the Varian who went into a burning building to save his friend.
I can't take away the guilt you feel for what you did there. I can't forgive you for anything you've done back there. All I can do is trust in who you are now. All I can do is be here for you now.
Thank you for telling me all of this, for trusting me with your story. It was very brave of you.
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It would be smarter for her to just cut her losses and run now. Because he'd been a mess and he was still a mess. A part of him was always worried he was only a small misstep away from becoming a monster again- because he was sure a part of him was still broken and awful. Why would he inflict that on someone like her?
But she does respond. And he takes his time to mull over her answer. It's a better response than he expected- by a long way. Not quite the utter forgiveness Rapunzel provided him, and he's glad of that. Rapunzel's attitude is smothering sometimes- she may be trying to make him feel accepted and better, but it only serves to remind him how terrible he is. At least Ruby is more grounded than that and he's glad for it. ]
It's... a lot, I know. And I needed to tell you. You matter a lot to me. You deserved the truth. Then at least you could make more informed choices about spending time with me. It didn't feel fair any more, keeping you in the dark. It wasn't exactly lying, but it was close enough. Hiding the truth from you didn't feel like a real option any more, brave or not.
I don't expect forgiveness, I sure don't deserve it. But thank you. For that. And for hearing me out. If you want to bail out now, you absolutely can. I genuinely wouldn't blame you. No hard feelings.
[He doesn't want her to. He wants to stay the Varian who would go into a burning building to save his friend. He wants to keep being the Varian she can believe in, instead of... that. But it's only fair he gives her the option. She wouldn't do it herself- but with a choice... he doesn't know. Maybe. ]
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Honestly,I appreciate that. I've had some bad experiences when it comes to information being withheld. The fact that you actually came forward with this on your own says a lot about you. I meant that.
You're welcome. I'm around to talk to whenever you need it.
I am going to bail out though, but only because I could really go for a burger right now. Do you want to come?
1/2
[Fenr pointed out there's a damn good chance Deerington will force him back the other way one day- that it had a knack for such things. He's under no allusions that maybe that might be the case one day. That he'll backslide and make a mess of things again.
But maybe he has a fighting chance with friends around. ]
2/2
Yeah. Sure. That sounds like a good idea. I don't think I've eaten since...
I want to say 'yesterday?'
[Save him from himself, Ruby.]
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[She had gotten that spiel herself. That this place was going to change her and there were just things she wouldn't stop here. That she wouldn't be able to keep all the promises she had made. Maybe they were right but she wasn't going to just accept something like that without a fight.
She wanted to keep believing and fighting for the people that needed a hand to stand up when times were tough.]
I have no idea how you do that. I would die. Literally die.
I haven't eaten since breakfast and I'm starving.
I'll be there in a jiffy.
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[His own ability to judge how 'good' he's being is horribly skewed. It helps to have decent people around to let him know he's still on the straight and narrow. ]
Honestly most of it is because I forget to eat rather than from any actual skill. Same with sleeping.
Great, see you soon.