 "un/finished") |
FERN |
Ooo slang part the second |
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FERN |
i think we just shared electrons, because i'm feeling a covalent bond between us |
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LANCE |
Pidge, I need your help. I gotta send a meme to Chloe but ... |
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DIPPER |
Hey Varian. You know those crazy alchemy bombs you used... |
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PETER |
Hey Varian, this is Peter. Um, Peter Graham. |
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USAGI |
Soooooooo~ How'd the date go? |
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MAKO |
Varianβ Checking in. |
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SHIRO |
i think one of us put a chicken patty in my toaster |
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EDDIE |
Hey. We need to talk. |
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MELIUS |
π»πΎ. πΌ ππππ πΎπ πππππ πππΎππΉ πΆππΉ πΎπ πΎπ πππ ππ½πππ |
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EDA |
Hey, kid. I... owe you an apology. |
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LUZ |
Valentines |
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MAUL |
I have a proposition for a project I think you'll be interested in |
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USAGI |
I LOVE YOU |
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FERN |
DUDE you still have your bandana! |
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BUZZ |
Morning. I heard from Fern you wanted to go out into the blizzard. |
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FERN |
dude your profile changed |
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USAGI |
Ruby told me about the breakup. |
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GLITCH |
Varian, I'm gonna go live somewhere else for now |
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MAKO |
A "nerd" is somebody smart... |
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MAUL |
Gifts |
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FERN |
heeyyyy quick question |
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FERN |
Christmas is coming up!!! |
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CHLOE |
god who the FUCK ever thought emojis were a good idea??? |
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KRISTOFF |
Varian,It's getting colder so I thought you could use this |
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FERN |
heyyyy Variable |
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RAPUNZEL |
okay not to put you on the spot but... |
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EDA |
Potion time |
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NEO |
Dude, I can mine antidote shit here! |
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GLITCH |
Got this in my basket. |
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EDA |
hey smart kid |
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TEN |
Hallo |
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ADAM |
Hey, k-- uh, Varian. I just wanted to check in |
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USAGI |
I'm sorry I worried you and fainted on you yesterday. |
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AMARA |
i lived, bitch |
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NEO |
Debatably good news, asshole |
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USAGI |
Hey Varian! It's Usagi |
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OSCAR |
I'm sorry, Varian. Tell me what you need |
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FERN |
a dark past huh |
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MAUL |
Varian. I am in great need of your assistance |
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FERN |
Varian VARIAN I CAN EAT FOOD |
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USAGI |
How much moon essence do you have? |
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USAGI |
VIVI-KUN, VIVI-KUN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT! |
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RICHIE |
well I promised |
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FERN |
A TOTALLY INCOMPLETE LIST OF OOO WORDS 'N SLANG |
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GLITCH |
VARIAN ARE THERE BUGS IN THE WATER?!
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USAGI |
To help with restless nights and the... |
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VIRA-LORR |
Little alchemist. I have a gift for you. |
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MARTIN |
Hi, Varian. This is Martin. I wanted to reach out... |
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USAGI |
Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you. |
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GLITCH |
varian I need to talk to you. it's important. |
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USAGI |
I need you not to panic after what I tell you. |
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FERN |
dog you have so many vests |
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IRONHIDE |
HONK HONK |
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USAGI |
... I'm sorry I couldn't help you better, Varian |
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EMERALD |
Hey, V. Not that I care that much or anything... |
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FERN |
tell me when you're alive |
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FERN |
Varian i stabbed two people |
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AMARA |
hey weirdo i have something for you
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FERN |
is the Rapunzel in town your Rapunzel? |
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PENNY |
Salutations!! You do not know me, but my name is Penny Polendina |
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YANG |
Hey, is this Varian? I think we've met once before. |
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FERN |
hey can we talk |
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FERN |
you told ruby |
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MAUL |
Surviving another year is always an occasion worth celebrating |
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USAGI |
Hey I wanted to apologise |
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USAGI |
VARIAN-KUUUUNNN!!!! |
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FERN |
birth |
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MAUL |
Look what just arrived for me. |
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KATHERINE |
Do you want to get paid to make more purple goo things? |
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FERN |
ok i know you're good with plants but what about animals |
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FERN |
dog interested in means girls or guys |
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He knows this because he'd do exactly the same thing, in Fern's position. They really are too alike and that... that's dangerous, sometimes. Still, Fern drops his arm and Varian lets out a slow breath. Okay, good.
He comes forward, gently taking hold of Fern's arm to take a look at it, trying to see why the grass isn't knitting together like it should. His brow furrows, concern evident in his features.]
Has it been doing this since you got back? Is it still a side effect of the death flu? Or has this happened to you before?
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He still doesn't want any help but he knows that pushing Varian away even more will only make things worse, so he just keeps on looking away and letting him poke and prod and do whatever. The grass at the injury twitches and sharpens a little, though not enough to do more than a papercut and certainly not enough to get through Varian's gloves.
Fern just... tried to focus on answering those questions, like he's hearing them from Doctor Princess back in Ooo. They're very clinical.]
It's... probably a side effect. Whenever I die here I have a hard time not - .... [Geez, this is the worst.] - Not falling apart into a pile of grass for about a week. The only other time that's happened was my fight with - with Finn. And that's only 'cause his prosthetic arm had a rotating blade. And a 'fatality' setting.
[Because hearing some more details on how the fight that might have killed him back home is totally not a horrible thing to bring up right now of all times, and all.]
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...And he used it on you? Way to be a psychopath, Finn. Wasn't a big fan already, great to know he's still the worst.
[He turns, rummaging in his backpack and pulling out a little vial. He looks at it for a moment, chewing his lower lip thoughtfully. Then, carefully, he shows it to Fern.]
Look. I've been working on something. It's... not much. Just some Nitrogen and Potassium, a touch of Phosphorous; it can help plants grow. I don't know if it would actually do anything for you. But it's worth a shot... you know... if-if you want.
[If you trust me is the unspoken part, there. Ever since Fern died, he'd been trying to find something, anything that might help Fern and his... specific needs. He wasn't human. It wasn't like a bandage or antibiotics. He had to think outside the box. ]
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Fern hesitates.]
He... didn't mean to.
[That's said in the tone that screams the situation was way, way more complicated than that. They really need to sit down and write out that timeline one day.
Of course, now any hope he had of relaxing has been completely squashed now that's he gone and brought up Finn. It's going to take him a while to shove those feelings back down, too.
When Varian turns away he leans a bit more heavily against the tree, glancing down at his shoulder. He looks up to see the vial, confused. That's a very plant-specific mixture, and he's pretty sure Varian didn't come up with it because he took up gardening as a hobby.]
Uh. Alright.
[What else is he supposed to say? 'No, I don't want to try using the science potion you obviously made to help me'?]
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[He picks up that tone, but chooses to bulldoze over it. That didn't sound like an accident- and he knows Fern's relationship with Finn is complicated at best. But this... this doesn't seem fair.
Still, bigger things to focus on. He nods, popping the cork off the cap. This was absolutely something he made with Fern in mind- he doesn't know if it'll work- Fern isn't exactly regular plants here. Still, he can work on it, improve it. Make something better.
He tips the concoction on Fern's arm and squints at it, waiting, studying, hoping it'll do something. ]
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[That's a question for Bonnibel, honestly, and it's a whole entire conversation that's probably better to have when they aren't dealing with... everything else. Fern keeps himself from fidgeting as he watches Varian pour the solution onto his arm, not sure what to expect. He's used to Bonnibel's science experiments, so he at least isn't afraid of the possibility of this going horribly wrong.
A few moments pass as the grass absorbs the nutrients. Nothing seems to happen... but then the grass slowly starts to regrow, taking on a slightly healthier green as his shoulder knits itself back up. Still very loose, but it's a definite improvement.
Fern watches, feeling a little relief that he isn't going to have to worry about his injury on top of the deathflu. Less great is that he has Varian to thank for that, it's one more thing that's making him feel lower than dirt.]
Thanks.
[This is the worst. This entire day is just the worst. He shouldn't say anything, he should just shut up after that gratitude.]
Uh... sorry. For stuff. [Stuff, he's so stupid.] I... I really thought I was doing the right thing.
[Clearly he was dead wrong about that.]
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He visibly relaxes as the solution works. Good. His thumb traces over the newly formed grass for a moment, checking it was holding. Satisfied, he shifts back a little, giving Fern his space back. A tired smile flickers across his face. ]
It's okay. You shouldn't have to worry about telling me how you really feel. I... didn't react well. [Story of his life. He rubs the back of his neck.] Look. Up until today I never even thought- well, I don't know. I thought "girls" was my only option but maybe it's not, but I just need to... figure that out. It's a lot to suddenly realise, y'know?
[The signs were always there. but he'd ignored them- because of course, he had. His romantic life prior to coming here was a crush on a woman who was much too old for him and was absolutely not interested in indulging in the puppy crush of a fourteen-year-old boy. ]
And I'm still trying to work out... everything with Ruby and I guess it's just... a lot, right now. All at once. [He lets out a self-deprecating chuckle] In case you haven't noticed, I'm really not good with people anyway, so this is a whole mess of confusion for me right now. And that's on me. Not you.
[He offers a smile, a little smaller this time.]
Look, I'm sorry I can't give you what you want right now - and frankly, you could do better anyway. I don't know... I think I need time? Just... time. And if you don't want to speak to me again because of that, that's fine. I get it. It hurts. You
[Rejection. When you've put your heart down on the line. ]
But you're still one of the most important people in my life, no matter what, okay? None of this changes that. Not ever. I just... I miss having my best friend around, y'know? I understand if you don't want that, or if it's not enough. [The terrible, poisonous voice in the back of his mind reminds him he's never going to be enough for anyone. It takes the wind out of his sails somewhat, so he finishes a little lamely.] But...yeah.
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He's still feeling uneasy and like a total wreck, even when Varian forgives him. The whole 'girls only' is baffling, but explains one or two things. And honestly, that kind of limitation has to really suck. No wonder he reacted the way he did. This isn't going the way he had been hoping, but it's marginally better than how they were both dealing with this earlier. He reaches up, absently rubbing the antler tattoo on his right arm.
Okay... okay, he's disappointed, but he isn't emotionally devastated. He can do this. He can try to not completely screw this up again.]
Time's... good. Time's better than - [Outright rejection this very second, though he can't bring himself to say that aloud. He can barely hold back a wince. He... also probably needs some time.]
You're important to me, too. [He instantly feels dumb for saying that too, though he at least feels like warrants reiterating with the self-loathing he's noticed creeping into Varian's words. Guess they're both feeling like garbage right now, that shouldn't be surprising. The least he can do is try to be reassuring, though he knows from previous experience how awful he is at that.]
I don't want to shut you out. [He's managing to sound firm about that, though as he continues he falters.] I just - do that, when stuff gets too hard for me to deal with. It isn't you.
[He's just as big a failure at people as you are, Varian. Don't worry.]
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...Yeah.
[That's both to his admission of his importance and the acknowledgement that time's... good. He needs to hear it, to know he matters. It's desperate and sad and he knows it. Is it fair to Fern to be like this? He doesn't know... probably not. But he needs it. To be important. Relevant. ]
...I can get that. And I appreciate it. I'll... I don't know. Is it easier to just give you your space? I don't want you to think I'm turning my back on you for that. Because I'm not.
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... But then there's that need to cling, and despite what Varian says there's the instinctive fear of being abandoned. Having to suffer through that, even if it's only a paranoid possibility in his head, seems worse than everything else, honestly.]
I don't know. At this point it'd probably feel weirder if you did. Pretty sure I'd just miss you.
[And wind up feeling even worse, so whatever he can do to mitigate that seems like the best plan. That doesn't mean the same applies to Varian though, and he can imagine 'needing time' also means 'needing space.']
... What about you?
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[He has been missing Fern, desperately and horribly. Not the same way Fern has been missing him, it turns out, but missing all the same. He doesn't want to lose Fern out of his life completely. That... that would be a miserable time, he's sure.]
I mean, I still want to hang out. You're my friend and honestly, it's sucked a whole lot not having you around. I haven't liked it one bit. Nope.
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It's been the worst. [He isn't really exaggerating, either.
He makes a noise akin to a sigh, finally pulling away from the tree.]
You... wanna head back to town?
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Sure, let's get outta here before any more creepy bug ladies show up.
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[He gives a little nod, starting to head in the direction of the nearest bus stop.]
Dunno if my body could stand up to another one of those.
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Yeaaaaah, let's not tempt fate. Maybe stop trying to murder things until you're completely better again? [He offers a crooked smile, to show he's joking.] I know that'll be hard for you, it's a lot to ask for.
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It is. It makes me feel better.
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Okay. How about I make you a few robots you can murder instead? You know. Stuff I can actually turn off and stop attacking you before they actually overwhelm you. While you get your strength back. Then you can murder things and not risk dying at the same time?
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You'd do that?
[He sounds baffled. On a good day his self-loathing gets in the way, and right now he's feeling like a worthless loser. Lower than dirt.
Varian's sounds like an awful lot of effort for absolutely nothing. Making robots for the sole purpose of destroying them seems seems like a waste of time and resources, and making them for him only triples how pointless they'd be.]
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Course I would. I can make any kind you like- whatever you want to test your skills out on. Let your imagination go wild.
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You don't have to. You've probably got more important stuff to do.
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[So he can build BETTER murder robots. What can go wrong there? Wow. ]
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[That is perfectly reasonable. It's less about him and more about refining the robots.
Still, this is a lot of effort, and after a few beats of hesitation reaches out to grab Varian's hand and give it an appreciative squeeze.]
... Uh, thanks.
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He wasn't expecting Fern to take hold of his hand and for a second his mind stalls. He blinks, staring at their hands for a moment, not entirely sure what to do about it. The guys back home would enact this simple gesture all the time, but knowing what he knows now... it's probably a lot less simple. He swallows down any growing panic, offering an (admittedly nervous) smile - returning the gesture. It's a little less sure, but it's there.]
Uh. S-sure. Don't mention it.
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I'm... probably gonna need a couple of days though. For sleep.
[Because on top of everything else he can feel whatever the plant equivalent of adrenaline draining away and leaving him, in blunt terms, fucking exhausted. They're nearing the bus stop, thank Glob for that, his limbs are feeling heavy and his brain is doing that fuzzy kind of screaming that he needs rest.]
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...Yeah. Sleep's probably a good idea. You need that to heal up.
[The bus shows up and Varian heaves out a sigh. Okay. ]
C'mon, let's get back to town.
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