 "un/finished") |
FERN |
Ooo slang part the second |
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FERN |
i think we just shared electrons, because i'm feeling a covalent bond between us |
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LANCE |
Pidge, I need your help. I gotta send a meme to Chloe but ... |
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DIPPER |
Hey Varian. You know those crazy alchemy bombs you used... |
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PETER |
Hey Varian, this is Peter. Um, Peter Graham. |
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USAGI |
Soooooooo~ How'd the date go? |
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MAKO |
Varianβ Checking in. |
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SHIRO |
i think one of us put a chicken patty in my toaster |
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EDDIE |
Hey. We need to talk. |
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MELIUS |
π»πΎ. πΌ ππππ πΎπ πππππ πππΎππΉ πΆππΉ πΎπ πΎπ πππ ππ½πππ |
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EDA |
Hey, kid. I... owe you an apology. |
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LUZ |
Valentines |
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MAUL |
I have a proposition for a project I think you'll be interested in |
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USAGI |
I LOVE YOU |
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FERN |
DUDE you still have your bandana! |
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BUZZ |
Morning. I heard from Fern you wanted to go out into the blizzard. |
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FERN |
dude your profile changed |
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USAGI |
Ruby told me about the breakup. |
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GLITCH |
Varian, I'm gonna go live somewhere else for now |
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MAKO |
A "nerd" is somebody smart... |
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MAUL |
Gifts |
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FERN |
heeyyyy quick question |
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FERN |
Christmas is coming up!!! |
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CHLOE |
god who the FUCK ever thought emojis were a good idea??? |
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KRISTOFF |
Varian,It's getting colder so I thought you could use this |
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FERN |
heyyyy Variable |
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RAPUNZEL |
okay not to put you on the spot but... |
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EDA |
Potion time |
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NEO |
Dude, I can mine antidote shit here! |
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GLITCH |
Got this in my basket. |
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EDA |
hey smart kid |
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TEN |
Hallo |
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ADAM |
Hey, k-- uh, Varian. I just wanted to check in |
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USAGI |
I'm sorry I worried you and fainted on you yesterday. |
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AMARA |
i lived, bitch |
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NEO |
Debatably good news, asshole |
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USAGI |
Hey Varian! It's Usagi |
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OSCAR |
I'm sorry, Varian. Tell me what you need |
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FERN |
a dark past huh |
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MAUL |
Varian. I am in great need of your assistance |
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FERN |
Varian VARIAN I CAN EAT FOOD |
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USAGI |
How much moon essence do you have? |
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USAGI |
VIVI-KUN, VIVI-KUN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT! |
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RICHIE |
well I promised |
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FERN |
A TOTALLY INCOMPLETE LIST OF OOO WORDS 'N SLANG |
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GLITCH |
VARIAN ARE THERE BUGS IN THE WATER?!
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USAGI |
To help with restless nights and the... |
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VIRA-LORR |
Little alchemist. I have a gift for you. |
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MARTIN |
Hi, Varian. This is Martin. I wanted to reach out... |
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USAGI |
Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you. |
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GLITCH |
varian I need to talk to you. it's important. |
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USAGI |
I need you not to panic after what I tell you. |
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FERN |
dog you have so many vests |
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IRONHIDE |
HONK HONK |
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USAGI |
... I'm sorry I couldn't help you better, Varian |
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EMERALD |
Hey, V. Not that I care that much or anything... |
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FERN |
tell me when you're alive |
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FERN |
Varian i stabbed two people |
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AMARA |
hey weirdo i have something for you
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FERN |
is the Rapunzel in town your Rapunzel? |
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PENNY |
Salutations!! You do not know me, but my name is Penny Polendina |
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YANG |
Hey, is this Varian? I think we've met once before. |
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FERN |
hey can we talk |
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FERN |
you told ruby |
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MAUL |
Surviving another year is always an occasion worth celebrating |
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USAGI |
Hey I wanted to apologise |
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USAGI |
VARIAN-KUUUUNNN!!!! |
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FERN |
birth |
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MAUL |
Look what just arrived for me. |
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KATHERINE |
Do you want to get paid to make more purple goo things? |
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FERN |
ok i know you're good with plants but what about animals |
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FERN |
dog interested in means girls or guys |
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To be 100% honest, I feel awful and not just from yesterday. I feel like I want ... [The moon. She wants to go home.]
I don't know. [But she does, or so a voice whispers. She wants to go home.]
I'm so tired of feeling useless.
I'm never enough... [And she's just... So tired of fighting, I just want to wake up.]
But Deerington doesn't care if you have a breakdown.
The universe doesn't care if you're tired. So tomorrow is another day.
[And she has to push this, whatever this is, away. Because she can't allow herself to wallow. There is no time for wallowing. Others can sit in their sadness, but she has to pick herself up. Too much depends on her. Or really, nothing depends on her and she's left feeling useless.
For so long she's been told time and again that she's supposed to fix everything, but she can't fix anything here.
It messes with your head, but no one talks about that either. There's never time to talk about it, a new enemy is just around the corner.
Deerington does not care if you're bone-weary.
The universe does not care how heavy the weights around your shoulders are. It only piles on more because that was what you were created to do, to be, to carry such a weight you never asked for. But you're good at it, or at least, you've gotten good at it.
But it doesn't ever stop. She will live this life for all eternity, and even if she gives it up, which is well within her right to do, it will merely go to someone new, and Usagi isn't sure she can bring herself to be so selfish as to force it on someone else. Or perhaps it's not selfishness. Perhaps it is as Varian says, she's got a savior complex, a hero complex, she's gotten to enjoy being the one to save everyone that she doesn't WANT to give it up.
Who knows?
She's not sure she wants to examine that part of herself, to see into herself and find only the greatest selfishness, cowardice, and ugly pride. ]
But I'm just so tired, Varian. [Tears roll down her cheeks, because, in this small moment, she can just be honest with at least one person even if she can't be fully honest with herself.]
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[He understands where she's coming from, though. He can't do much against the monsters here. Sure, he can hold his own in a fight if he needs to, but he's by no means a seasoned warrior. He can make a difference with the antidote, so he's clung to that desperately, to try and help there.]
You're not useless, Usagi. And you're right, Deerington doesn't care if you're exhausted or if you have a breakdown or if you die. It will just keep going no matter what.
[This place just never quits and it's truly exhausting sometimes.]
Which is why pushing yourself to destruction doesn't really make that much of a difference. I guess we're just delaying the inevitable. But delay it we do. Because it's better than rolling over and letting this place win.
[He's quiet, he knows he can't convince her to rest, any more than she can convince him to rest. Not properly, not long enough for it to really matter. ]
Look. How about we make a deal. I'll take a break for a few hours, you take a break for a few hours. I doubt either of us will sleep, but it's better than nothing. Sound good?
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You may not feel as altruistic as you actually are, but even with all the bad, Varian, you've got a heart of gold. I know you do.
But... yeah, okay... a break for a few hours. I woke up a few hours ago... the moon essence... It's not something I could do a lot of even if I wanted to. I've never felt like this, not even after battles that end my existence have I felt this tired.
It's not safe to have you come over, again... I'm so sorry. I'm gonna hug you so tight when I see you. Not a full hug, but as close to one as I can get.
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[This is a really bad time for shitty self-deprecating jokes, Varian.]
Thank you, that's all I'm asking for. Just for you to take a little rest, okay? And it's fine. We'll put a hug on layaway. Once October's done.
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[She offered the tiniest smile.]
I'll rest I'll rest, I'll even climb into a kigurumi to do it.
Promise to give me a hug when you see me next time?
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[He offers her a small smile in return.]
Of course. I promise you can have a hug.