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[droptheious]

FROM: SUBJECT: FERN Ooo slang part the second FERN i think we just shared electrons, because i'm feeling a covalent bond between us LANCE Pidge, I need your help. I gotta send a meme to Chloe but ... DIPPER Hey Varian. You know those crazy alchemy bombs you used... PETER Hey Varian, this is Peter. Um, Peter Graham. USAGI Soooooooo~ How'd the date go? MAKO Varian— Checking in. SHIRO i think one of us put a chicken patty in my toaster EDDIE Hey. We need to talk. MELIUS 𝐻𝒾. 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌 𝒾𝓉 𝓁𝑜𝑜𝓀𝓈 𝓌𝑒𝒾𝓇𝒹 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒾𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝓈𝒽𝑜𝓇𝓉 EDA Hey, kid. I... owe you an apology. LUZ Valentines MAUL I have a proposition for a project I think you'll be interested in USAGI I LOVE YOU FERN DUDE you still have your bandana! BUZZ Morning. I heard from Fern you wanted to go out into the blizzard. FERN dude your profile changed USAGI Ruby told me about the breakup. GLITCH Varian, I'm gonna go live somewhere else for now MAKO A "nerd" is somebody smart... MAUL Gifts FERN heeyyyy quick question FERN Christmas is coming up!!! CHLOE god who the FUCK ever thought emojis were a good idea??? KRISTOFF Varian,It's getting colder so I thought you could use this FERN heyyyy Variable RAPUNZEL okay not to put you on the spot but... EDA Potion time NEO Dude, I can mine antidote shit here! GLITCH Got this in my basket. EDA hey smart kid TEN Hallo ADAM Hey, k-- uh, Varian. I just wanted to check in USAGI I'm sorry I worried you and fainted on you yesterday. AMARA i lived, bitch NEO Debatably good news, asshole USAGI Hey Varian! It's Usagi OSCAR I'm sorry, Varian. Tell me what you need FERN a dark past huh MAUL Varian. I am in great need of your assistance FERN Varian VARIAN I CAN EAT FOOD USAGI How much moon essence do you have? USAGI VIVI-KUN, VIVI-KUN GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT! RICHIE well I promised FERN A TOTALLY INCOMPLETE LIST OF OOO WORDS 'N SLANG GLITCH VARIAN ARE THERE BUGS IN THE WATER?! USAGI To help with restless nights and the... VIRA-LORR Little alchemist. I have a gift for you. MARTIN Hi, Varian. This is Martin. I wanted to reach out... USAGI Hi Varian, sweetie! I have a question for you. GLITCH varian I need to talk to you. it's important. USAGI I need you not to panic after what I tell you. FERN dog you have so many vests IRONHIDE HONK HONK USAGI ... I'm sorry I couldn't help you better, Varian EMERALD Hey, V. Not that I care that much or anything... FERN tell me when you're alive FERN Varian i stabbed two people AMARA hey weirdo i have something for you FERN is the Rapunzel in town your Rapunzel? PENNY Salutations!! You do not know me, but my name is Penny Polendina YANG Hey, is this Varian? I think we've met once before. FERN hey can we talk FERN you told ruby MAUL Surviving another year is always an occasion worth celebrating USAGI Hey I wanted to apologise USAGI VARIAN-KUUUUNNN!!!! FERN birth MAUL Look what just arrived for me. KATHERINE Do you want to get paid to make more purple goo things? FERN ok i know you're good with plants but what about animals FERN dog interested in means girls or guys

TO: SUBJECT: USAGI So. Maul dropped by, he's got his memories back. ADAM I'm worried about Shiro FERN Hey handsome OSCAR You've been weirdly quiet lately FERN Guess what I haven't told you lately? USAGI Hey. I'm back from the dead and I feel like trash. FERN I made meatloaf that may or may not poison us! Emerald Hey. I know you probably don't want to talk to anyone right now... BELLA Hey Bella. You've dated someone who's a different species to you right? BILL Hi, Fern mentioned you were interested in interdimensional portals... FERN Aw, your pictures are nice! KURT Hey. Are you around? RICHIE Is it just me or is Eddie acting weirder than usual? QROW Hey. Checking up on you. EDA Hi Eda. Hope Ruddiger found you okay. GLITCH Hey. What happened between you and Maul? LUNA Luna- I uh... I think I need your help EDDIE So hey, I finally worked out how to replicate the Antidote OSCAR So, I noticed Ozpin has shown up. ROGUE Hey, I managed to replicate the Antidote KURT Hey. We're back. None of us are dead. QROW Uh... hey. How are you guys holding up? PETER You gave Ruby the haunted dolls GLITCH Hey, Bud. Sorry I tried to murder you with a robot KURT I'm probably the last person you want to talk to... JON I'm sorry I attacked you JON Stay away from Fern. FERN Hey you still haven't got me those baking ingredients FERN Okay so the Betties are upping their war... USAGI Hey. So. Update. NEO You tried to bury her alive? SERIOUSLY? USAGI Emotions are really difficult FERN OH MY GOD YOU HAVE ONE TOO FERN Okay this better be to Fern this time. WYNONNA So guess who got into the fridge and ate literally everything in there.

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[droptheious]

[Varian's already small smile drops like a rock. He was more than okay with helping Fern deal with his problems- his own... are still very tender. He's not sure if he's ready to allow himself even a sliver of forgiveness yet. He looks down at where his hand is still in Fern's - and it's only for the candle that he doesn't just bail on the entire conversation.

The town didn't make you into anything you're not. This gives him some degree of comfort. Anyone else might not be able to see how, but to Varian, it was far better than the promises that he was better. That he wasn't that person any more. Because if that were true, the town wouldn't have been able to pull it out from him to use it against people he cared about. No, he couldn't reconcile with the idea that wasn't him, but the idea there was more after that was a little easier to swallow. ]

Yeah. I- uh... I think I need a little time to be able to find that. I think I'm okay just wallowing in the self-loathing for a little while longer.

[laminae]

[Seeing Varian's smile fade isn't encouraging, though he isn't all that surprised. Self-loathing is a real killer, and he doesn't expect Varian to dig himself out of that hole right away. Fern is just hoping this is something he'll remember, something he can come back to, once he's ready to start pushing past the guilt and hatred of himself and what he did.

So all he does is nod. He understands. After you've done something horrible you need time to just wallow and feel bad.]

Yeah, that's fair. Um, do some resting in between all the wallowing.

[He looks down at their hands as well, before he continues.]

I should let you rest.

[droptheious]

[At least here in Deerington, Varian has better tools to dig himself out now. It will still take him time, one step at a time- but he has people here who matter a whole lot to him. He's got a relatively good life here. He just needs to be able to take stock, give himself space to beat the self-loathing back to a manageable level. ]

Yeah, resting is probably a good idea.

[Because he feels like trash and he knows he's got at least a week of this to look forward to. Impulsively, he gives Fern's hand a small squeeze.]

Okay... and thanks. You've- uh... you've really helped. Couldn't have done this without you.

[laminae]

[There's a slight pause as Fern looks a little surprised at the squeeze, but returns it before climbing too his feet. He doesn't put the candle out, Varian is free to do with it as he likes and he's aware of how important it's going to be for him to be able to get some decent rest over the next week.]

Hey, no problem.

[He's just happy to be able to do anything to make this whole mess a little easier to handle.

He'll head for the door.]

Just text me if you need anything. [Since yelling probably isn't going to happen, at least not for a few days.]

[droptheious]

[Varian lets the candle burn... for now. Probably a waste, but he desperately wants to sleep- and he's not convinced he can do it without the candle's influence. He gives a small, lazy salute.]

Will do.

[Yelling is for sure not going to happen for a while. He lays down proper on the bed again, at least he should be able to get a little shut-eye. It helps knowing Fern's around standing guard if he needs it. ]