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FROM: SUBJECT: JUN & HARU Hey Var, do you got a moment? JUN Just so you know, I'm fine, but I might be harder to contact. EVE Hey Varian, are you on this train? JUN Hey honey, where are you? GIL The Cube 4 GIL The Cube 3 JUN Hey Var, is this a good time to run a rather personal ethical dilemma by you? JUN Oh hey, lumber! GIL The Cube 2 GIL The Cube 1 RATIO Some while back... JUN I'm fine, I went to my room. KNI I am sorry. RATIO I will be going back to teaching on Monday. NOCTIS you okay there? JUN Date BLADE Varian. How are you doing? NOCTIS hey, you’re an engineer. JUN birthday NOCTIS hey, it's noctis. from the park? BLADE A little bird told me... ZHONGLI Hello. This is Zhongli BLADE This is Blade. Jusis told me to find you... ROSE You’re Varian, right? AMAL Loser gets adopted FERN Heyyyy V, you busy? DANNY Birthday AMAL Happy nameday to the best scientist I know! JUN Are you busy? There's something I wanted to ask you. AMAL hey varian FERN hey i just realized something great DANNY Hey. I know you're probably busy with everything... ZODIAC Happy Holiday from Zodiac! CLAUDE Hey Varian. You there? ZELOS Heeeey Varian! I'm sure you're busy... FIVE I know you might be busy right now but... FERN heyyy, did you see that guy...

TO: SUBJECT: JUN Two questions. BLADE Hey, hey hey, Blade. JUN Birthday VASH I figure it's probably about time we talk, huh? JUN 愛してるよ ???!!! AMAL Dad? You home? JUN Forgt anyting nuice I said aboout space KNI Happy birthday, Kni! MIKLEO Hey, Mikleo. Jun said it'd be okay to message you... YUUKI So hey, do you think you could... JUN So. Uh. That happened. ELLIOT Hi, Elliot. Can I talk to you about something? AMAL Dad, something happened to Fern. DANNY Hey, Bud. I've got some bad?? news? EVE Hey, Eve. I wanted to make sure AMAL Happy birthday, Dad! AMAL Hey, could I get your opinion on something? VASH Hi there! Texting ahead of time like you asked. FERN Happy birthday, you. FERN Day of Hearts WILL Hey, Will. When are you free? I've got your... ELLIOT ...Hey, Elliot. Can I ask your advice on something? SNOW Hey, you available? ELLIOT Elliot? I'm- I'm really sorry to bother you... AUGUST Hey. Can I ask a follow-up question after my last one? DANNY Hey. There's something important I need to talk to you about. FIVE Hey, I was thinking we should probably talk MOANA Hey. Remember me saying we probably needed to talk... ELLIOT Um. Hey. I wondered if we could talk. AMAL Hey. Are you busy? Can we talk? HUNTER Just so you're aware... AUGUST Can I ask some advice? DANNY Hey, Danny! I think I've figured out something... KEN Hey! The figure you wanted is all finished.

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Comments

[whiteshroud]

[The blushing? Is honestly cute, especially now that Jun has a better sense of what it means. And really, Jun has his own blush going at Varian's compliment. He caught the gender neutral word choice, and really, it's appreciated. He does laugh gently though]

Haha, I thiiiink you're underestimating how much attention I get in that area. The Jesus thing tends to be a real turn-off in the gay clubs. [He's joking, the only gay club he's ever hung around was the Vogue... and well, half the staff of that place is convinced he's 10 years old.

Those fingers in his hair feel nice, and he makes a soft sound through his nose to indicate that. He'll shift to be closer to Varian, moving to kiss the corner of his mouth before breaking the kiss and speaking again.]

I'm glad you approve. Let me know what pace you're comfortable with, okay? Don't want to sweep you off your feet too hard.

[droptheious]

[Okay, that pulls a little laugh out of him.]

No kidding. Maybe you have the uncanny ability to summon their catholic guilt. Terrible superpower, but you live with what you get.

[Certain people in the Vogue absolutely hold the impression that Jun is ten and will remain so for the rest of his days.

The noise Jun makes is pretty encouraging, and Varian makes a mental note of that for the future. But he is glad for the break and the question- it gives him a moment to actually gather his thoughts.]

Thanks, I'm more than okay so far, I'll let you know if it's too much. [He rubs the back of his neck, clearing his throat.] Uh- unlike you with your furry wolf sex [no, he's not letting that go anytime soon, Jun said it that way and now he has to suffer for it forever] I have not slept with anyone yet so maybe uh... not that just yet.

[ Quickly, before he opens himself up for Victorian comments again.]

Unlike the period dramas you've really gotta stop watching because oh my god, no- I don't need you to like, fight a duel for my honour or anything. Just give me a couple extra dates to get my head around it. Because I want to [he blushes again] oh boy, do I want to, but I wanna be sure I'm ready for it.

[Because as much as his teenage hormones are screaming otherwise, he's trying his best to be sensible about this. This matters- Jun matters. He wants it to be a good experience, when it happens.

There's a significant pause - then he raises a finger to add.]

Also, aforementioned furry wolf sex probably won't happen. I'm so freaking stupid on a full moon, Jun. It won't go the way you want it to, and I won't even remember it, so it'd just be a horribly disappointing experience for both of us. Let's not do that to ourselves.

[whiteshroud]

[Truth be told, that was a more thorough and wordy answer than he was expecting. It's enough that makes him snort a little, especially considering the joke that Varian had just made]

Ha, maybe you're onto something with the guilt power. Seems it got summoned just now.

[Okay, he's joking. He will be shifting into a more comfortable position for talking though]

It's okay, Varian. I wasn't going to call you a Victorian over this. I'm Catholic, remember? Withholding on sex is kinda our thing. [But since Varian KEEPS bringing up, he'll make an awkward clearing of his throat] The "furry wolf sex" was... not exactly planned.

[He does pauses though, biting his lip to hold back the obvious snarky remark about Varian's intelligence ALL the time.]

... Haha, so that's how you are on a full moon. Don't worry, that's fine with me. Considering how it went the last time I tried that, I rather not repeat it anyway.

[droptheious]

[ He's a winner at this, clearly.]

Oh. Oops. Sorry, didn't mean to summon the terrifying catholic guilt.

[But still, he'll sit up a little better, a rueful chuckle escaping him.]

Okay that's fair. I do think you've got me trumped on that one. Hah, but that does make me feel better. Like- [ he pinches his thumb and forefinger near to each other] a tiny bit.

[ Oh. No. He sees that lip bite. He can feel the snarky remark Jun is holding back. He can sense it coming off him in waves. ]

Don't. [A quick warning. Don't EVEN.] Oh. Yikes, that bad, huh? Well, that's okay, we can just veto that. It's fine.

[whiteshroud]

[He'll chuckle and wave his hand in a "don't worry about it" motion. Guilt, it happens. ]

I'm not saying anything! [Damn, Varian does know him too well.

But ah yeah. He'll scratch his jaw, his telltale sign of embarrassment]

Y-Yeah it's.... [Oh boy, he doesn't want to say it, but his partner does kinda need to know] We kinda got so into it I forgot to hold back my strength, and uh.... Ryouta had to see a healer after.

[So. Yeah. That bad]

[droptheious]

You don't have to say it, I know you're thinking it.

[He KNOWS, Jun. He knows. He does note the jaw scratch, brow furrowing in worry.

A worry that doesn't really ease once Jun actually explains what the issue was, though it does make space for some awkward embarrassment too. ]

O...oh. [ He clears his throat. ] Yeah, yep. That'd about do it. Were you both like... okay, after? Or is this like... a psychologically not okay kind of thing?

[He only asks because he knows Jun is good at compressing his hurt in a way to hide it from others but ultimately only hurts him more. He's noticed that and this feels like one of those... compressing sort of things. The Catholic Guilt again.]

[whiteshroud]

Hey. Just like I can't control your science thoughts, you can't control my internal quips.

[So there!!

He does raise an eyebrow at Varian's reaction. He wasn't really expecting that kind of reaction. To care more about the psychological rather than the... well calling a healer part. Varian really was a sweet person. ]

Oh, Ryouta was fine. He found the whole thing hot, somehow. [TRULY, A STUPID MAN]

I freaked out. Nearly took a vow of celibacy, had Ryouta not talked me down from it. [He sighs. In other words, this would've been a compression thing, had Ryouta not been there] I just don't want to have a repeat of the incident. Especially when you're...

[He trails off, trying to find a polite way to put "you're a scrawny nerd unlike Ryouta"]

... Well, you and Ryouta are different people.

[droptheious]

Ugh, fine. I guess that's fair.

[He will concede to this. He supposes.

Varian's learned that healers are great and all but they sure as hell can't fix what goes on in your noggin after something potentially traumatic happens. That's where the real kicker is. He makes a soft 'eh' sound about Ryouta finding it hot, making a little scale motion with his hands. Varian would not have had a puppy crush on a terrifying sword lesbian if he didn't at least vaguely entertain the idea he'd like to be stepped on sometimes.

But as Jun continues to speak, it's clear to Varian his worries were founded correctly. Ah, there it is. The compression.]

I mean... you know it wasn't really your fault, right? It just happened. Things happen.

[And wow, wow. Varian lets out a faux gasp, putting a hand on his chest.]

What are you trying to say. [At least the offence is only a jest, as he lets out a snort of laughter.] I mean, I'd prefer if you didn't snap me like a twig in all honestly. [He lets out a thoughtful hum.] Well, I've never been afraid of pushing back at you so far. I can at least guarantee that if it gets too much, I'll tell you. Does that help?

[whiteshroud]

[He notices that scaling of his hand and once again quirks his eyebrow a little more. What's that supposed to mean Varian???]

I mean, it's not like I'm beating myself up every night about it. [That's... something? But he frowns a little, because he knows what Varian's saying is hitting a deeper thread than just one little incident. There's a long pause as he tries to figure out how to word it all.] ... It's complicated. The first half of my life I was raised to be a weapon, and then the second half of my life my dad taught me to be a pacifist and try to blend in with human society. So even if logically I know something's a accident... getting my feelings to believe that is another matter.

[God he hopes that makes sense, since he's not that good at understanding his feelings, much less vocalizing them. He's worked on it in therapy, but he knows he's a long way off from nailing it.

But... he considers that, before nodding. Thats true. Varian's never backed down from an argument in his entire life. Of course he'd share his opinion. His shoulders relax a little, he hadn't realized how tense they are]

...Yeah, it does help. [He nods] Maybe some phrase so I don't confuse it with our normal banter?

[droptheious]

[It's fine, Jun, don't worry about it. That's a fun thing you can find out later.

He waits patiently for Jun to work thought his feelings, and even more so when he tries to voice them. He knows Jun well enough to know the guy would much rather bury everything away and not talk about it at all, so the fact he's trying is a big deal.

He's never been in a position where he's felt like a weapon himself (most of his actions came from a place of anger and hurt, no one had to mould him that way - bar Andrew) but he remembers what Jun has said about Krusnik in the part. It breaks his heart to think of anyone being treated that way, but even more so when it's someone who matters so very much to him.

He smiles gently, reaching out to rest a hand over one of Jun's, giving it a reassuring squeeze and keeping it there.]

So it's like what you've known in the past is at war with what you know now? I mean, that's understandable- they couldn't be more contradictory. It makes sense that it'd worry you, like... struggling which side of you to lean into when... I mean, honestly, it's probably more down the middle than anything, yeah?

[He gives Jun's hand another squeeze.]

That's okay. Thank you for telling me. [Because he WILL encourage Jun choosing to speak about what's going on in his head every time.] I think that's... more than fair to struggle with.

[He notices the tension easing and is glad of it.]

Okay, we can do that. That's totally doable.

[whiteshroud]

[Burying them away, or just not dealing with them at all, was his usual mode of operation, that's true. It was only little by little did he learn to recognize his feelings and open up about them, and even then it was difficult.

But he did want to try. Especially after Varian opened up so much about himself. Jun never would asked him about his past, but Varian volunteered it. Forced himself to share. How could he not make an effort in return?

He listens to Varian's assignment about it, giving a small nod]

... Mm, it's something like that. [He didn't want to be just a weapon like Krusnik wanted, but he never really fit into normal life like his father hoped he would. Somewhere down the middle was a good way to describe it.... though Jun can't help but scrunch his nose in a self-deprecating matter as he jokes] Pretty cliche of me to struggle with yet another binary huh?

[Because get it? Get it? Okay, not his best. He does give a bit of a smile as he squeezes Varian's hand]

... Thank you for listening. [And understanding. He'll let that smile come, not wanting to linger on such a heavy topic]

Aha, sorry. I didn't mean to kill the mood with some heavy talk, I really was just trying to assess which base we were reaching tonight.

[droptheious]

[Varian definitely gets it. His feelings tended to fester until they exploded, and that always ended... badly. But with baby steps, he's getting better, and he's more than willing to help Jun deal with that too. It takes help to figure out how to better yourself, after all. No one can do it alone. And lucky for him, Jun isn't alone.

He snorts a little at the scrunched up nose - reaching out with his free hand to boop if gently with his finger.]

Why stop at what you're good at, huh?

[It's fine, he gets the joke. It landed.]

Literally any time. I meant it when I said I was always here to listen.

[He shakes his head, gently pulling up Jun's hand to his lips, pressing a little kiss on the knuckles, before glancing up at him.]

You didn't kill the mood. It's okay. [He is 18 years old, the building being on fire would not kill the mood for him. He might trying to be sensibly not letting his hormones take the wheel the whole time, but they're still leaning on the horn. His lips turn into a little smirk.] Two? Two feels like a good number.

[whiteshroud]

[He wasn't expecting a nose boop. It catches him off guard for a second, before he breaks into a giggle at both the action and Varian's joke]

Hehe, good point. I do like being an enigma.

[... He looks completely charmed as Varian kisses his hand. He'll lean over to kiss Varian's forehead in return]

And I'm always here to listen to you too.

[Whether it be about Varian's past, his present, or just whatever topics are on Varian's mind. He wanted to be there for that.

But thank God. The mood wasn't killed. He wanted to be careful about this, avoid any past mistakes but... boy, being here with Varian sure is reminding him that it's been awhile ]

Two? As in second base? Well... okay! That's...uh... [... Excuse him as he pulls out his phone from his pocket with his free hand and does the world's FASTEST google search.] Hold on- I'm sure it's pretty safe though. 2 isn't very high-

[The search comes up. His eyebrows raise at the results]

.... Heavy petting and touching over clothes. Huh. For second base?

[droptheious]

[A laugh bubbles out of him at Jun's giggle - that was adorable.]

I never would have guessed!

[It's a gentle tease and his smile softens at Jun's reassurance- and the little kiss on his forehead, that was nice.]

Thank you, I know. I really appreciate that.

[Because good lord, if he didn't need it sometimes, too. Being able to unload his past onto Jun and not having it ruin everything has been significantly comforting. It's given him a safety net he sorely needed.

He sits back while Jun googles that, absently playing with the other boy's fingers in his captured hand. He considers the results.]

To be fair, I existed before baseball did, I'm mostly guessing. [Varian will use that as an excuse as many times as he can get away with, regardless of the fact he's lived in the modern world for over two years at this point. Still, he gives a thoughtful hum.] I'm okay with that, I think. I mean, probably a lot for two people on a first date who barely know each other. But we've known each other for a long time now.

[He smiles, leaning in to press a kiss at the crook of Jun's jaw.]

So, yeah. I'm okay with that... uh, if you are. I mean, I trust you, so-

[whiteshroud]

Varian. Don't lie. Even if baseball existed in Corona, you never would've learned the rules.

[He knows you, nerd. A sport and a team one at that? The only way Varian is playing that is if it's by force.

When he's done reading on the phone, he'll set it on the coffee table. No need to keep holding onto that. He gives a little shrug as he turns his attention back to Varian. With the hand being held, he'll move his thumb to trace along Varian's skin.]

Oh, I'm okay with it. I guess I just always thought the bases escalated slower...like first base was hand-holding or something. [But he gives as coy little smile] But that's alright. How about I take lead and go until you say stop?

[.... That is the smile of a guy that totally plans to be a tease throughout this]

[droptheious]

...Yeah, okay, that's fair. I definitely would not. They tried to make me participate in the Gopher Grab once and I just hid in my lab until they went away.

[Because Varian really will avoid all sports - especially team ones. God, no. Just let him die instead.

There's a tingle of excitement as Jun's thumb brushes over his hand- especially added with that smile. Varian is vaguely aware that he's setting himself up for something here, but he has no intention of pulling away yet.]

Hah, guess I never thought about it before. [His smile turns a little more lopsided, his heart beating a little faster in anticipation.] Yeah, okay. I'm very okay with that.

[whiteshroud]

Ah right, the time honored Gopher Grab. Still sounds as bizarre as the first time you told it.

[Also vaguely unethical treatment of the gopher, but now that they're getting back into it, the last thing Jun wants to do is derail things with a discussion of rodent handling ethics.

So instead he gives a wink with his coy smile ]

Alright, leave it to me then.

[He'll draw close to him again, pulling him into another proper kiss. This time, he'll take lead, guiding the kiss into being deeper than the ones before. His free hand meanwhile will move to the side of Varian's head, fingers moving into his hair and the thumb tracing along his ear lobe]

[droptheious]

[Varian does not want to get into the Gopher Nonsense right now. That would be too big a derailment, and he'd really rather not. Especially after Jun gives one of those fucking winks again. He's certainly not interested in any other topic of conversation after that.

Nope. There's only one thing he's interested in right now.

He happily follows Jun's lead into the deeper kiss, the butterflies in his stomach working overtime as he makes a soft noise into it, savouring the taste of Jun's lips. He shifts closer, very much enjoying the feel of Jun's fingers in his hair, of his thumb playing along his ear. He gives Jun's hand a little squeeze of encouragement to keep going on whatever track he's headed down here. It's extremely welcome.]

[whiteshroud]

[Varian's reaction is very much a motivator for Jun. He feels a rush of excitement at the noise and the clear enjoyment of the other.

So he'll keep it up. His tongue slips out of his mouth, poking at Varian's lips to try to get into his mouth as the kiss continues. All while he's doing that, he'll get up and carefully climbs onto Varian's lap. His knees will move to rest on the couch on either side of Varian, so he's not actually putting any weight on him- but it certainly makes it a whole lot easier to close the distance between them. ]

[droptheious]

[ Varian feels Jun's tongue at his lips, and it's like a spark of electric up his spine. He readily parts his own lips to allow Jun inside. He has to try and navigate past those buck teeth first, but should he manage it, he'll find Varian's own tongue greedily welcoming his as a reward for that hard work.

He shifts a little as Jun climbs onto his lap, so he can settle easily between Jun's thighs- he releases Jun's hand so one can settle, palm down, at the small of Jun's back, the other moving up to the back of his head to tangle in the green hair at his neck. ]

[whiteshroud]

[Considering his previous partner was Ryouta "will never stop talking" Ibuki, he's learned how to navigate worse than buck teeth when it comes to kissing. They're actually pretty cute. He makes a please sound through his nose as he explores his mouth and plays with Varian's tongue.

Eventually he has to break for air, ending the kiss. But he then moves to start kissing the corner of Varian's mouth, speaking between kisses.]

Taste any of that copper and tellurium you were asking about, Professor Larch~?

[He says that in a lightly teasing tone, because of course he's not letting go of that bad science pun from earlier. He makes a hum of approval at the feeling of Varian's hands, tilting his head so Varian can easily reach his hair. Meanwhile own now free hand will slide onto Varian's chest, fingers brushing over the fabric of his shirt. ]

[droptheious]

[Varian would be very charmed by Jun finding the teeth cute. He's certainly very charmed with all the kissing, and when Jun breaks for air a soft whine escapes his throat even if they both need to breathe to, y'know, live. He shifts to chase those little kisses with his own lips, a breathy laugh escaping his as Jun asks him that.]

Maybe~ But you know what they say in science, Professor Olive, you really do have to test things out multiple times to be sure.

[He deserves the teasing, it was a terrible flirting attempt, and he knows it, but if he can turn that to his advantage he sure as hell will. Varian takes advantage of Jun's tilted head to thread his fingers through his hair, he's pretty sure Jun can feel his heart absolutely thundering in his chest with his hand where it is- but it's a feeling Varian wants to keep chasing.]

[whiteshroud]

[He gives a warm chuckle, both at Varian's remark and his little whine. He'll let him chase a couple of those kisses, giving a quick kiss in return. But then, teasingly, he'll move his head away and instead start kissing a trail on Varian's jaw, and then his neck]

Mm, don't worry. You'll get many opportunities to test that out. [on the next kiss, he'll gently scrape his teeth against Varian just to see the reaction] But right now, I'm the one running the experiment.

[Well, Varian said he liked being stepped on.

He can feel that thundering heart, and honestly? It's a rush, enough that he finds himself resting his palm there for a moment to feel it. He knows that his own heart must be beating just as fast]

[droptheious]

[Varian has only a moment of disappointment as Jun's lips move from his own- but it's soon replaced by delight as those kisses move down his jaw and neck. He hums in appreciation, tilting his head back to give Jun better access. ]

H-hah is that the case? Good to know, I'd hate to miss out on more of that.

[As Jun's teeth scrape against his neck, Varian's breath catches, his synapses on fire. Oh. Well, he's sure learning new and interesting things about himself today, he liked that a lot. He mutters something in German that is absolutely not a nice word as his fingers tangle a little tighter in Jun's hair.]

Okay. Good- good experimenting. Carry on.

[whiteshroud]

[Ohhh, he caught that reaction. And while he wasn't fluent, he knew enough German to know that was definitely a curse word. If Varian's hums gave him a rush, than this was like striking gold. ]

Oh~? Did you like that?

[He'll do it again, this time taking his time as he slowly scrapes his teeth over Varian's skin, before following it up by soothing the spots with his tongue. ]