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droptheious) wrote2025-03-16 05:47 pm
droptheious) wrote2025-03-16 05:47 pm
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Varian
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Metaphorical neck throttling, Darling. But yes, I DID notice that. I noticed that a lot.
I think the same. I'm really looking forward to sharing my future with you.
Love,
Varian.
P.S. Yes, I remember, I will never forget. I was convinced there was a whole conspiracy going on for the better part of a year because of you. Smartass.
It would, and I think we could all use a little downtime.
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So you'll marry me?
[Look it does not matter if they're already engaged, he'll still ask it from time to time. It's a thing]
Seriously? A better part of the year? Wow. I figured you would've forgotten it among all the other new stuff you were adjusting too.
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[They may already be engaged, but the question still makes his heart do a little flip in his chest. ]
Of course I will, no matter how many times you ask me, the answer will always be yes.
No, I never forgot it. I had more important things to focus on, but it was always in the back of my mind.
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[They still gotta compete after all
His own heart does a flutter at that, even if he knew what the answer would be. ]
I'm glad. And that'll always be my answer too.
I see.... so in a sense, you could say I was always on your mind~? [Bruh.]
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[ They're always gonna be the way they are, and Varian wouldn't want it any other way. ]
Good to know, because I'll probably keep asking, too.
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Uggggggggggggggh. I hope you're proud of that one.
Actually. I was wondering if I could run something by you. I was thinking about it, with the anniversary and all.
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[Not that he ever would, but apparently that turns Varian on!]
Hehe, very proud indeed. \(￣︶￣*\))
Oh? What is it?
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Look. LOOK. It's a nice reminder to have sometimes. It's an enjoyable reminder.
I was thinking of maybe spending a few more nights a week with you in the Fortress... if- if you'd like, obviously. I mean, in the future we're gonna live together permanently anyway, I thought it couldn't hurt to get used to that a little. And if I do it slow and gentle-like, it might give Dad enough time to get used to living by himself, too. He has his chocobo now so hopefully I can navigate too much loneliness for him when I'm not there.
I mean... if you'd like that.
[ Because yes, even if they are engaged and literally going to be married, Varian still feels the need to check that his presence is wanted. He's working on that nasty little self-loathing part of himself, and it's telling he's at least able to ask now, and be pretty confident in Jun's answer. But that part of him is still there enough that he needs to double check, all the same. ]
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The answer is easy for him]
Fine by me! I'd love that.
I've been actually wondering how to broach that topic for awhile now. I know how close you are to your dad, so I didn't want to pressure you.
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Thank you. I'd love that, too.
You know me. I... overthink. And I do love Dad and love being with him, but I love being with you, too. I still worry about him sometimes, being alone, which is why I wanna take it slow, for his sake. I don't want him to think I abandoned him.
[The "like G'raha did" is in his chest, he doesn't type it, but it stays lodged there anyway. Add that to the people in his father's past and... well, so many people have left Amal behind. Left him alone. Varian never wants Amal to think he did that to him, not for anything. ]
But I think giving him time to get used to the idea is the way to go.
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I completely understand, it's the same reason my first place was next door to my dad's, before I moved down to the fortress. If you feel doing it slowly to help him get used to it is best, then I'll be with you every step of the way.
[Because he gets it. He loves his own dad a lot too, and leaving his dad alone was a big concern]
Besides, we'll need time to prepare our place anyway. Right now, my place is pretty much set up with just myself in mind. If both of us are going to be living there, then it'd be good to change some things so it's OUR home.
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[ But having Jun come from a place of understanding and similar experience means the absolute world to him. It makes him feel a little less like he's being paranoid about it.
And... oh. That comment does make his heart feel so very full. He has to tamp down the desire to say he's fine with things as they are, or that he doesn't need anything changing, to lessen his presence in the apartment. Because he knows that's his brain lying to him. Jun wants him to live there, he's shown time and time again that he loves every part of Varian- even the parts of him that are chaotic and messy. The parts Quirin always told him to quieten down. They are a part of Varian and he does know Jun loves those. He doesn't have to worry about his own quirks being an inconvenience at best or at worst an embarrassment. ]
I'd really like that. I mean. Making it OURS. That sounds really nice. I really do want to build a home with you.
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[Jun has the sense that the slow move-in is more for Varian's sake than Amal's. Amal is an adaptable guy, and an extroverted guy. Jun's pretty sure if Amal got lonely, he wouldn't have issue going out and talking to people. But.... he's not going to point it out. If this is what helps Varian feel better, then he doesn't mind taking it slow]
Me too. It might be a bit tricky to renovate with us being under the water, but I'm sure it's a challenge you can handle!
Though uh.... I do have one stipulation, if that's alright, based on the room you have already in the fortress:
Any materials that'd be considered a health hazard must stay in your production zone workspace, okay? And that includes tetanus.
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[ Because Jun is right, Varian's fears are very much on his own. He's finally got a father who loves and encourages him- someone who calls him his little spark and treats every invention, every win and failure like an incredible achievement. He's afraid if he spreads his wings too quickly, he'll somehow lose that- and only time will prove his demons otherwise. ]
It's a challenge I'll be glad to test out!!! I know I can manage it!
[ And at some point in that work, he'll find his serenitea pot he forgot he had and that will make life a lot easier. Currently it's in his dumping room in the Fortress, gathering dust, forgotten, speaking of... ]
You know what? I think that's an extremely fair stipulation. Even if I WORK in organised chaos, I probably shouldn't live in it and you definitely shouldn't. Okay, I can live by that stipulation, nothing dangerous in our room!
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[And he truly did mean that.]
Haha, I know you can! And I'll be there to give what help I can too.
[He's not a great engineer like Varian, but hey, at least he can do manual labor- and decorating! He's pretty good at that]
Good! Glad we're on the same page there!
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I know you'll be a big help! I might be better at building, but you have a MUCH better eye for style than I do. I'm relying on you to make whatever me manage to build to look good!
[Varian has all the faith in him on that! He LIKES what Jun can bring to the table, he's so much better at it than Varian is. ]
We are. I already feel so much less anxious about it. I love you.