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Varian

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FROM: SUBJECT: JUN & HARU Hey Var, do you got a moment? JUN Just so you know, I'm fine, but I might be harder to contact. EVE Hey Varian, are you on this train? JUN Hey honey, where are you? GIL The Cube 4 GIL The Cube 3 JUN Hey Var, is this a good time to run a rather personal ethical dilemma by you? JUN Oh hey, lumber! GIL The Cube 2 GIL The Cube 1 RATIO Some while back... JUN I'm fine, I went to my room. KNI I am sorry. RATIO I will be going back to teaching on Monday. NOCTIS you okay there? JUN Date BLADE Varian. How are you doing? NOCTIS hey, you’re an engineer. JUN birthday NOCTIS hey, it's noctis. from the park? BLADE A little bird told me... ZHONGLI Hello. This is Zhongli BLADE This is Blade. Jusis told me to find you... ROSE You’re Varian, right? AMAL Loser gets adopted FERN Heyyyy V, you busy? DANNY Birthday AMAL Happy nameday to the best scientist I know! JUN Are you busy? There's something I wanted to ask you. AMAL hey varian FERN hey i just realized something great DANNY Hey. I know you're probably busy with everything... ZODIAC Happy Holiday from Zodiac! CLAUDE Hey Varian. You there? ZELOS Heeeey Varian! I'm sure you're busy... FIVE I know you might be busy right now but... FERN heyyy, did you see that guy...

TO: SUBJECT: JUN Two questions. BLADE Hey, hey hey, Blade. JUN Birthday VASH I figure it's probably about time we talk, huh? JUN 愛してるよ ???!!! AMAL Dad? You home? JUN Forgt anyting nuice I said aboout space KNI Happy birthday, Kni! MIKLEO Hey, Mikleo. Jun said it'd be okay to message you... YUUKI So hey, do you think you could... JUN So. Uh. That happened. ELLIOT Hi, Elliot. Can I talk to you about something? AMAL Dad, something happened to Fern. DANNY Hey, Bud. I've got some bad?? news? EVE Hey, Eve. I wanted to make sure AMAL Happy birthday, Dad! AMAL Hey, could I get your opinion on something? VASH Hi there! Texting ahead of time like you asked. FERN Happy birthday, you. FERN Day of Hearts WILL Hey, Will. When are you free? I've got your... ELLIOT ...Hey, Elliot. Can I ask your advice on something? SNOW Hey, you available? ELLIOT Elliot? I'm- I'm really sorry to bother you... AUGUST Hey. Can I ask a follow-up question after my last one? DANNY Hey. There's something important I need to talk to you about. FIVE Hey, I was thinking we should probably talk MOANA Hey. Remember me saying we probably needed to talk... ELLIOT Um. Hey. I wondered if we could talk. AMAL Hey. Are you busy? Can we talk? HUNTER Just so you're aware... AUGUST Can I ask some advice? DANNY Hey, Danny! I think I've figured out something... KEN Hey! The figure you wanted is all finished.

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Comments

[droptheious]

I don't know if a good person would keep messing up this much, this badly.

...I guess that's a point. I didn't realise how much people did care until just now, really. I never felt worth it. But I guess it's not on me to decide that.

[Rapunzel definitely never felt that way. That he didn't deserve it. Neither did any of his friends back home, but he thought that was...different. He was wrong.

He listens to what she has to say, lets it really sink in because wow, that's...so familiar. Not completely, of course, but there are enough beats in this story which are echoes of his own. He doesn't respond immediately. He just...mulls over it. When he does respond, he switches to voice, too. ]

I made people lose their memories, too. I did it on purpose, and I wanted to do it to everyone. I wanted people to forget some...very terrible things I did. Stealing, kidnapping, trying to kill people. I was angry for a long time and blamed the wrong person for it. I- a lot of my friends are like that back home. People who made mistakes. Who got second chances despite what they did.

...It's just hard to think about deserving it sometimes, I guess. When I keep making stupid mistakes.

[Another long pause.]

But it sounds like you know a lot about that, too. I- if it's any consolation, you don't seem like a bad person to me. At all.

[brightspot]

Thanks... And I... Actually have killed people, or helped do it, even if it was technically in self-defense...

My friends are like that too, people who've done bad things in the past on purpose and by accident, and... And even more recently some of us have made bad choices, slipped up? But maybe it's not really possible to be purely good all of the time anyway? I think you just have to try, and make up for your mistakes when they happen, because we're human and it's bound to happen. But I think we let people help us when we make mistakes because that's how we all be better, by helping each other.

[droptheious]

Hah. [It's a sad, tired little hah if ever there was one.] At least you got that one over on me. I was stopped before I could...actually kill anyone. It definitely wasn't self-defence, though.

[This is...comforting to hear, too. It makes him feel a little less broken, a little less terrible. He knows a certain amount of weight will always be hung around his neck. He'll never shuck all of it and that's...fine. That's his penance for everything he's done.

But this does make him feel less alone.]

...Yeah. I- I was alone for a while. Things had been better though, back home. I've been helping the Kingdom, trying to make good from all the bad I did. And I had a lot of support back home to...help me do that. Things were getting better. I...was letting myself get better. But it sounds like you understand that a lot, huh?

[brightspot]

[Maybe Five is worse, actually, since there's still a part of her that thinks "those people deserved to die" about the people she helped kill in self-defense. But... Weighing your past good or bad seems a little counterproductive, to her. It's about what you do in the future, here on out. Then again maybe that's just easier to say for someone whose memories of the past are all messed up anyway.]

Yeah. I think I maybe get what you're going through. And you can have support here too, you know? I'd be part of your support, and I'm betting your other friends want to help support you too. Especially right now. I think it would be best for all of us if we all went through it together, fixing everything back up, rather than anyone doing it all alone.

[droptheious]

[Varian definitely knows he needs to move forward. He was doing that before he was pulled here. The portal was a mistake, he knows that now, and at least it was an unintentional one. But his past is never too far behind him, following him like a spectre. It just got a chance to be louder and more obvious than usual with this rather large error.

Having support here means letting people know who he was, what he did. It means lowering some pretty subtantial walls to let people in and he's still afraid people will revile him for his actions. But...]

I know you're right. That I...can get that support here. I've got friends here...and I do count you as one of them. [He clears his throat.] I guess I just need to um...talk to them about it. You and Fern are the only people who know.

...I mean, besides Rapunzel and Cass who were there.

[brightspot]

Well... That's four whole people, though. That's definitely a good start, I think? I don't think you need to push yourself to share any part of your past you're not totally comfortable with sharing, but... It would probably bring you closer with the people you tell? And if it doesn't, then... you know you have us to fall back on, to be there for you still.

I kinda wish I was there so I could give you a hug, but I don't even know if you like hugs. Do you like hugs from friends?

[droptheious]

I...guess it is. I don't know, it's weird. When I first got here I kinda grabbed hold of this idea that I wouldn't be known as the person who messed everything up so badly. And now a whole different mess-up has happened for me to be known for. So I guess that's...karma or something.

[Aww, that pulls a smile to his lips, a sad little chuckle escaping from him.]

Not a big touchy person, but I don't mind hugs from friends.

[brightspot]

If karma was a thing, I'm pretty sure big corporations wouldn't be getting away with using people in need for their own purposes. So... I don't know if that's karma. I think maybe it's just... An obstacle in life? And the only thing you can really do is work towards doing your best in the future.

I'd say not to dwell on it but... I understand that's a lot easier said than done, especially when there are gonna be asshole jerkfaces who will hold this against you. But feel free to point them out to me and I'll sneak in their houses and loosen all their lightbulbs and leave painful little circuits all over their floors for them to step on barefoot in the middle of the night.

[That's absolutely a threat. However, much sweeter:]

And... Please remind me I owe you a hug the next time you're not busy?

[droptheious]

...Yeah, I'm not so good at avoiding the...dwelling. Been trying that for a couple years now and I kinda always default to it. The Dwelling. Most of it is self-inflicted honestly, but I appreciate the effort you're willing to make for me all the same.

[Friendship is sometimes breaking into people's houses and loosening their lightbulbs!!!]

Okay, okay. You have one hug on layaway.

[brightspot]

Sometimes those thoughts are hard to fight against. I think I get that. Just remember that you have people in your corner, if you can.

[droptheious]

Thanks, Five. I...really appreciate it. I'll do my best to remember it.