CONGRATULATIONS YOU ARE THROUGH TO RUDDIGER. PLEASE LEAVE FOOD AT THE END OF THE BEEP. MESSAGES CANNOT BE GUARANTEED DELIVERY IF FOOD IS NOT PROVIDED. [VIDEO | AUDIO | TEXT]
[In truth, Varian would feel the same about himself, too. He knows full well what he's capable of. He categorically doesn't want to be that person anymore, but that doesn't mean this place won't push him there. It happened once before, it can happen again. It scares him to think about. He can only hope his friends here would stop him before he went too far before he actually hurt someone. ]
Yeah, that's...normal for a lot of us, I think. It probably makes beasthood and corruption a lot easier to get a foothold.
[Holy shit has he had a pleasant conversation with Paimon? What a world.]
I...honestly don't know. I guess a lot of people don't like having everything that's hurting them laid bare. I-I mean at least for me it's like...self-preservation.
[Does he want to have debt over a demonic force living inside his friend's head? Hmm.
No. No, he does not.]
It's okay. Call this a freebie.
(no worries at all if you'd rather let this go! ❤️)
( Self-preservation? That's... really interesting, actually. Paimon's not sure he fully understands, but he seems genuinely curious. Learning more about how Peter functions could make things run a lot more smoothly, so if he could understand more of what Varian means... )
Self-preservation... Survival....? You feel it helps you survive?
(Freebie? What is this freebie? Sorry Varian, but he's not going to let go of this... Balance is essential for how he functions. )
Fern's internal companion told me you are part of the royal court. Back home. ( ...He and Grass Demon were gossiping about you. It's fine. But it definitely means Paimon's idea of Varian's Level of Importance is pretty significant, and therefore.... ) You may request something of high value. I will give it to you.
[He hesitates. He doesn't like talking about his past and he definitely doesn't want Paimon to know everything.]
I don't like people knowing a lot about me, and if they find out what hurts me, they...inevitably find out a lot about me and my past and I'd rather they...didn't.
[He pauses.]
Oh. Right. Yeah, I am. I'm the Royal Engineer. [Thanks a lot, Grass Demon, you jackass. ] Well. Um. I don't think I need anything right now?
( .....Oh. That sounds a lot like Peter, too. He hadn't realised that Varian and his host could have so much in common. And while Paimon doesn't fully remember all of it... he has grasped over time that Peter doesn't like people finding out about his past. His family, the guilts he carries. )
....I believe I understand. I will not question you further.
( Paimon, respecting people's boundaries?? Things really have changed... )
When you think of something you need. You can call on me, and I will provide it for you.
( It's not that he suddenly loves Vareen, okay. But.. yes, things have changed. Paimon no longer has any venom towards him in regards to his relationship with Fern, and so long as Varian doesn't try to hurt Luna again.... the demon has a newfound respect for him. He's a man of science, and part of royalty? Funnily enough, he's the exact sort of person who would be ideal for the demon king to work with. )
[He and Peter could sit down and write a whole-ass book on the subject of deep festering guilt for their past actions. He's...relieved that Piamon doesn't press further. He knows enough to understand the demon king chases knowledge, it's...weirdly nice to see he has limits.]
...Thank you.
[Genuinely. He didn't expect this conversation at all, much less it turning out like this.]
I will. I should probably get some sleep. Before I end up waking Fern up. Uh- good talk.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
droptheious) wrote2021-06-20 12:39 am
 "un/finished")
![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png){kind=small}
cawaii
no subject
Yeah, that's...normal for a lot of us, I think. It probably makes beasthood and corruption a lot easier to get a foothold.
[Holy shit has he had a pleasant conversation with Paimon? What a world.]
Don't mention it, glad to uh...be of some help.
no subject
...Or an opportunity to Return The Favour, because that's just how Paimon functions. )
I will provide something for you in return. Whatever you desire.
no subject
[Does he want to have debt over a demonic force living inside his friend's head? Hmm.
No. No, he does not.]
It's okay. Call this a freebie.
(no worries at all if you'd rather let this go! ❤️)
Self-preservation... Survival....? You feel it helps you survive?
( Freebie? What is this freebie? Sorry Varian, but he's not going to let go of this... Balance is essential for how he functions. )
Fern's internal companion told me you are part of the royal court. Back home. ( ...He and Grass Demon were gossiping about you. It's fine. But it definitely means Paimon's idea of Varian's Level of Importance is pretty significant, and therefore.... ) You may request something of high value. I will give it to you.
(I can go as long as you like <3)
[He hesitates. He doesn't like talking about his past and he definitely doesn't want Paimon to know everything.]
I don't like people knowing a lot about me, and if they find out what hurts me, they...inevitably find out a lot about me and my past and I'd rather they...didn't.
[He pauses.]
Oh. Right. Yeah, I am. I'm the Royal Engineer. [Thanks a lot, Grass Demon, you jackass. ] Well. Um. I don't think I need anything right now?
no subject
....I believe I understand. I will not question you further.
( Paimon, respecting people's boundaries?? Things really have changed... )
When you think of something you need. You can call on me, and I will provide it for you.
( It's not that he suddenly loves Vareen, okay. But.. yes, things have changed. Paimon no longer has any venom towards him in regards to his relationship with Fern, and so long as Varian doesn't try to hurt Luna again.... the demon has a newfound respect for him. He's a man of science, and part of royalty? Funnily enough, he's the exact sort of person who would be ideal for the demon king to work with. )
no subject
...Thank you.
[Genuinely. He didn't expect this conversation at all, much less it turning out like this.]
I will. I should probably get some sleep. Before I end up waking Fern up. Uh- good talk.