[That is a whole lot to take in. She doesn't respond right away because her head is spinning trying to figure out how to take this. It's not as vivid as when she literally watched Salem and Ozma's life play out before her eyes, but it doesn't make it any less painful consider what Varian had been through and had done because of it.
The lengths he had gone to save his father. The lengths he had went to try and make people forget what he had done after. It reminded her a lot of the lengths that Salem had went to bring Ozma back and the lengths she had gone to defy the Gods and their punishment.
There was a key difference in those stories though. Varian was trying to make up for what he had done and Salem was still... Salem. If Varian's friends. If the people he had done this too had been able to give him another shot. She felt the like the least she could do is give him the same chance. He hadn't given her any reason to not trust him here. He had saved her life. She had spent time with people who thought they were pariahs and people who actually were. He was good people now as far as she was concerned even if he hadn't always been.
She's probably spent a little too much time thinking this over, but he had typed it and she had to mull it all over now.]
Varian.
I don't really know what to say to all of that. If all of that is true and I don't have any reason not to believe you. Then it sounds like you had a real streak of awful in your life. It sounds like you were hurt and you hurt people right back whether they deserved it or not. That is pretty despicable I won't argue with that.
At the same time you were trying to save your dad. I don't know what I lengths I would go to do the same thing. I know that I put my life on the line to save anyone I can whenever I can. I can understand wanting to do whatever was in your power to help someone.
I can't really judge you based off what you did in the past. It's not my place to do that. I can only trust in what I've seen you do and what you've told me. It sounds like it would have been a lot easier for you not to tell me all this and carry on the way you we've going. You didn't take the easy way out. You were honest and you put everything you had on the table knowing this could blow up in your face. I've met a lot of people who wouldn't be willing to do the same thing if they were pressed to.
Your friends at home were willing to give you a second a chance. They seemed to think that you were worth it. I want to believe in the same Varian that they believed in. I'll put my trust in the Varian who went into a burning building to save his friend.
I can't take away the guilt you feel for what you did there. I can't forgive you for anything you've done back there. All I can do is trust in who you are now. All I can do is be here for you now.
Thank you for telling me all of this, for trusting me with your story. It was very brave of you.
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The lengths he had gone to save his father. The lengths he had went to try and make people forget what he had done after. It reminded her a lot of the lengths that Salem had went to bring Ozma back and the lengths she had gone to defy the Gods and their punishment.
There was a key difference in those stories though. Varian was trying to make up for what he had done and Salem was still... Salem. If Varian's friends. If the people he had done this too had been able to give him another shot. She felt the like the least she could do is give him the same chance. He hadn't given her any reason to not trust him here. He had saved her life. She had spent time with people who thought they were pariahs and people who actually were. He was good people now as far as she was concerned even if he hadn't always been.
She's probably spent a little too much time thinking this over, but he had typed it and she had to mull it all over now.]
Varian.
I don't really know what to say to all of that. If all of that is true and I don't have any reason not to believe you. Then it sounds like you had a real streak of awful in your life. It sounds like you were hurt and you hurt people right back whether they deserved it or not. That is pretty despicable I won't argue with that.
At the same time you were trying to save your dad. I don't know what I lengths I would go to do the same thing. I know that I put my life on the line to save anyone I can whenever I can. I can understand wanting to do whatever was in your power to help someone.
I can't really judge you based off what you did in the past. It's not my place to do that. I can only trust in what I've seen you do and what you've told me. It sounds like it would have been a lot easier for you not to tell me all this and carry on the way you we've going. You didn't take the easy way out. You were honest and you put everything you had on the table knowing this could blow up in your face. I've met a lot of people who wouldn't be willing to do the same thing if they were pressed to.
Your friends at home were willing to give you a second a chance. They seemed to think that you were worth it. I want to believe in the same Varian that they believed in. I'll put my trust in the Varian who went into a burning building to save his friend.
I can't take away the guilt you feel for what you did there. I can't forgive you for anything you've done back there. All I can do is trust in who you are now. All I can do is be here for you now.
Thank you for telling me all of this, for trusting me with your story. It was very brave of you.