I get that. I should've gotten it then, but I get that now. You're still the only one here who knows about what happened with me and Finn.
[Saying that aloud makes him feel - not like total hypocritical garbage, thanks to the candle - foolish for not catching on when he should have known better. He shifts a little, then moves to sit down on the floor, back against the wall and legs pulled up to his chest.]
I didn't tell anyone you had anything to do with it.
[What he wants to say next is anxiety-inducing, so he just repeats to himself. It wasn't about them not actually being friends, it was just a failure on his part. That's an easier pill to swallow than abandonment.]
I'm sorry I was the reason you felt like you had to go to her. I should've done better. [Shouldn't have gone and died like a loser.] I'm sorry I wasn't there for you.
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[Saying that aloud makes him feel - not like total hypocritical garbage, thanks to the candle - foolish for not catching on when he should have known better. He shifts a little, then moves to sit down on the floor, back against the wall and legs pulled up to his chest.]
I didn't tell anyone you had anything to do with it.
[What he wants to say next is anxiety-inducing, so he just repeats to himself. It wasn't about them not actually being friends, it was just a failure on his part. That's an easier pill to swallow than abandonment.]
I'm sorry I was the reason you felt like you had to go to her. I should've done better. [Shouldn't have gone and died like a loser.] I'm sorry I wasn't there for you.