[Fern doesn't believe that at all. He feels like a huge disappointment, a letdown of a best friend. It's his fault and he should feel bad. He doesn't look up.]

I get that you're not. And you've been really patient with me being a lunkhead.

[Fern's time to sigh, as he scrubs his hands over his face.]

I'm not doing enough. I need to try harder, I should be trying harder to remember you and everyone else.