[It's a little easier for Varian. Sure, he's guarded, but his emotions always bubble close to the surface. It's getting started on talking about his feelings that he struggles with. Once he gets the ball rolling, the words come quickly to him.
But then Fern is touching his face and pulling him in and all the words are just lost. His eyes widen and his breath catches. They really messed this up first time around and he really doesn't want that to happen again. They should be able to kiss each other like a regular teenage couple without making a complete disaster of it.
Okay, okay. So the last time he messed this up by breathing in. So this time he's just... not going to do that. That's fine, who needs oxygen? His chest feels tight and intense but in a good way. It's a good panic if such a thing can exist. He closes his eyes, meeting Fern's lips with his own, the rest of the room fading into the background as he sinks into it. ]
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But then Fern is touching his face and pulling him in and all the words are just lost. His eyes widen and his breath catches. They really messed this up first time around and he really doesn't want that to happen again. They should be able to kiss each other like a regular teenage couple without making a complete disaster of it.
Okay, okay. So the last time he messed this up by breathing in. So this time he's just... not going to do that. That's fine, who needs oxygen? His chest feels tight and intense but in a good way. It's a good panic if such a thing can exist. He closes his eyes, meeting Fern's lips with his own, the rest of the room fading into the background as he sinks into it. ]