I think you're overestimating how much I care about hurting myself again.
[Self-loathing always turned to 100 and all that. But he genuinely doesn't want to hurt either Ruby or Fern. It's the last thing he wants, and so he's been burying it as deep as it will go. Except now it's bubbling outwards, and if Usagi's noticed, maybe other people have too.]
No. They don't know. I can't just-
[He sucks in a ragged breath. He's been holding this in, keeping it to himself for months, and now he has an outlet he doesn't know how to handle it.]
Usagi, I don't know what to do. I still love Ruby, too. I don't- how are you supposed to deal with having feelings for two different people at the same time?
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[Self-loathing always turned to 100 and all that. But he genuinely doesn't want to hurt either Ruby or Fern. It's the last thing he wants, and so he's been burying it as deep as it will go. Except now it's bubbling outwards, and if Usagi's noticed, maybe other people have too.]
No. They don't know. I can't just-
[He sucks in a ragged breath. He's been holding this in, keeping it to himself for months, and now he has an outlet he doesn't know how to handle it.]
Usagi, I don't know what to do. I still love Ruby, too. I don't- how are you supposed to deal with having feelings for two different people at the same time?