[That simple 'thank you' is enough to send another wave of relief through him, a reassurance that things aren't as big of a mess as they were even just a day or two ago. Though, Varian's coughing fit drags him right back to reality, and he realizes they're outside in town, probably the worst place for someone suffering from the post-death flu could be. His concern for Varian's current state overrides his desire to break down crying again, and he pushes those feelings down.]
Just some other robots.
[Is he downplaying all the bears he's had to deal with this month? Absolutely. It's a knee jerk habit Finn always had, always understating the battles he's fought, never wanting to give the full picture so that people can't get worried about his wellbeing. With Fern that reflex is ramped up even more thanks to his self-loathing. Even if someone were to pick up on the danger he's been in, he doesn't think he'd deserve their concern. Right now it wouldn't help Varian, either. It'd probably just make him sicker or something, and hey, it's not like any of those robots actually killed him.
He would have deserved it if they had. He's kind of amazed they didn't, and the thought makes fresh guilt within him surge.]
I'm sorry, too. I didn't even try to stop you.
[He was a pretty awful knight for all the people who needed one, all things considered. If he had been a good knight - even a good friend - he would have tried. But the only people he made the slightest attempt at protecting were people he had close connections to, and one stranger with a song that affected him on a deeply emotional level.
Of course, with that said, he's giving Varian a serious look.]
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Just some other robots.
[Is he downplaying all the bears he's had to deal with this month? Absolutely. It's a knee jerk habit Finn always had, always understating the battles he's fought, never wanting to give the full picture so that people can't get worried about his wellbeing. With Fern that reflex is ramped up even more thanks to his self-loathing. Even if someone were to pick up on the danger he's been in, he doesn't think he'd deserve their concern. Right now it wouldn't help Varian, either. It'd probably just make him sicker or something, and hey, it's not like any of those robots actually killed him.
He would have deserved it if they had. He's kind of amazed they didn't, and the thought makes fresh guilt within him surge.]
I'm sorry, too. I didn't even try to stop you.
[He was a pretty awful knight for all the people who needed one, all things considered. If he had been a good knight - even a good friend - he would have tried. But the only people he made the slightest attempt at protecting were people he had close connections to, and one stranger with a song that affected him on a deeply emotional level.
Of course, with that said, he's giving Varian a serious look.]
You need to get back to bed.