[Though he doesn't want to be in this situation at all, he's relieved to hear that apology. He exhales slowly, grateful for it. It means that he was completely wrong before, which is great. Varian isn't just letting him hang around for no reason, he actually cares.]
I could've been smarter. About everything.
[He's been a failure as a knight, a failure as a friend. If he gave it more thought he'd probably find some way he was a failure as a... grass-whatever.
He scratches his jagged fingers against his knees, looking at them instead of Varian.]
I care about you a lot, Varian. I don't want you to have to rely on her all the time when things get hard.
[His chest tightens as he continues.]
A few weeks ago you were asking me who I want to be. I think I want to be that kind of person for you.
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[Though he doesn't want to be in this situation at all, he's relieved to hear that apology. He exhales slowly, grateful for it. It means that he was completely wrong before, which is great. Varian isn't just letting him hang around for no reason, he actually cares.]
I could've been smarter. About everything.
[He's been a failure as a knight, a failure as a friend. If he gave it more thought he'd probably find some way he was a failure as a... grass-whatever.
He scratches his jagged fingers against his knees, looking at them instead of Varian.]
I care about you a lot, Varian. I don't want you to have to rely on her all the time when things get hard.
[His chest tightens as he continues.]
A few weeks ago you were asking me who I want to be. I think I want to be that kind of person for you.