[Varian is happy for the quiet, really- he never feels the need to fill the silence- content to let it linger. The purring is nice anyway, and he can just close his eyes, snuggled up to Jun, listening to it. This is more comfortable than he's been since... hell, he can't even remember.
He does open his eyes when Jun starts talking, shifting his head to look back, a small smile crossing his face.]
Yeah. I've never been a big fan of [oh woop, here come the fingerquotes] "destiny" either. I've seen it used way too many times to push people into something they don't wanna do or used as an excuse for them hurting people. Destiny's just a lazy way to avoid accountability for everyone involved.
[He absolutely does not believe in destiny one bit- he's seen how that bullshit ripped Rapunzel and Cassandra apart, how it nearly killed all of them. Destiny can go fuck itself, quite frankly.
But Jun makes a very different point. Varian hums softly as he considers this, resting his chin on his boyfriend's chest, feeling it ride and fall with his breathing as he mulls that over.]
...You know, that's a really nice way to look at it. I like that idea a lot better. It's less... foretold and more about the choices that led you to this point. Yeah- I can get behind something like that.
[He draws lazy circles with his finger on Jun's chest.]
Because you're right. I mean- I was pretty worried coming here tonight. I've got, like, so few friends. As in... people I actually trust. [Because once you've had your trust so thoroughly betrayed as Varian has, you don't make it a habit to let people get that close again. Earning Varian's trust is no small feat, he doesn't hand it over easily.] I was scared that at some point I was just gonna lose you and that'd be... pretty unbearable, actually. [Jun annoys the everloving fuck out of him on a regular basis, but he'd never want to lose that for anything, it's a regular part of his existence and he couldn't bear to be without it. Without him.] But it... really wasn't hard at all, once I got here. It really did feel right. Like... like, I dunno. A jigsaw piece falling into place, or something.
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He does open his eyes when Jun starts talking, shifting his head to look back, a small smile crossing his face.]
Yeah. I've never been a big fan of [oh woop, here come the fingerquotes] "destiny" either. I've seen it used way too many times to push people into something they don't wanna do or used as an excuse for them hurting people. Destiny's just a lazy way to avoid accountability for everyone involved.
[He absolutely does not believe in destiny one bit- he's seen how that bullshit ripped Rapunzel and Cassandra apart, how it nearly killed all of them. Destiny can go fuck itself, quite frankly.
But Jun makes a very different point. Varian hums softly as he considers this, resting his chin on his boyfriend's chest, feeling it ride and fall with his breathing as he mulls that over.]
...You know, that's a really nice way to look at it. I like that idea a lot better. It's less... foretold and more about the choices that led you to this point. Yeah- I can get behind something like that.
[He draws lazy circles with his finger on Jun's chest.]
Because you're right. I mean- I was pretty worried coming here tonight. I've got, like, so few friends. As in... people I actually trust. [Because once you've had your trust so thoroughly betrayed as Varian has, you don't make it a habit to let people get that close again. Earning Varian's trust is no small feat, he doesn't hand it over easily.] I was scared that at some point I was just gonna lose you and that'd be... pretty unbearable, actually. [Jun annoys the everloving fuck out of him on a regular basis, but he'd never want to lose that for anything, it's a regular part of his existence and he couldn't bear to be without it. Without him.] But it... really wasn't hard at all, once I got here. It really did feel right. Like... like, I dunno. A jigsaw piece falling into place, or something.