[Varian realises he's mistepped as soon as Jun's expression falls. For a moment, confusion blooms across his features, knowing he's done wrong but not exactly realising where. Luckily for him, Jun will fill in those gaps for him.
Fuck.
He winces, pulling his hand away so he can run it over his face. Guilt settles in like a heavy stone. He'd overthought that whole thing, put weight where there hadn't been. He'd made this into something it wasn't and hurt Jun in the process.]
I'm sorry. [That's important to say first. He knows that much. ] I didn't- I didn't mean to treat you like you were glass. I just... I overthought it. I read that wrong and I was worried you were gonna... I don't know do something you might not be all on board for just for me when I don't-
[He stops himself from saying "deserve it", but it hangs there all the same. He pushes it to the back of his mind. He doesn't want to make this about him. He's upset his partner and that's all that matters right now. ]
...You're right, sometimes I do worry about your past. I worry about how it's... it's hurt you and shaped you and I- I guess I get scared sometimes about using you? Like... the last thing I ever want is you feeling used. Especially by me. But... you're right. You're your own person and you know your own limits and... and I need to respect that. I'm sorry. [He'll say it again, and then because he really does mean it:] I promise I'll try to do better.
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Fuck.
He winces, pulling his hand away so he can run it over his face. Guilt settles in like a heavy stone. He'd overthought that whole thing, put weight where there hadn't been. He'd made this into something it wasn't and hurt Jun in the process.]
I'm sorry. [That's important to say first. He knows that much. ] I didn't- I didn't mean to treat you like you were glass. I just... I overthought it. I read that wrong and I was worried you were gonna... I don't know do something you might not be all on board for just for me when I don't-
[He stops himself from saying "deserve it", but it hangs there all the same. He pushes it to the back of his mind. He doesn't want to make this about him. He's upset his partner and that's all that matters right now. ]
...You're right, sometimes I do worry about your past. I worry about how it's... it's hurt you and shaped you and I- I guess I get scared sometimes about using you? Like... the last thing I ever want is you feeling used. Especially by me. But... you're right. You're your own person and you know your own limits and... and I need to respect that. I'm sorry. [He'll say it again, and then because he really does mean it:] I promise I'll try to do better.